[amayastar]

Has anyone ever freaked out in their therapist's office, Yelled at Therapist, threw something. Got angry stormed out of the office. How did your Therapist react??

[Inner_Firefly]

Yes! I got extremely angry at T and yelled at her very harshly. It was embarrassing afterwards because eventually realized I was overreacting to something she said.

[ScarletPimpernel]

Emotional breakdown? Yes. Raised my voice? Yes. Anger outburst? Nope. I'm not that type of person. I usually express anger inwardly, not externally. I have to be pushed really hard to have an anger outburst.

[stopdog]

I have gotten angry at the woman. She just sat there - she did not do anything.

[Willowleaf]

I got angry once in the early days and stormed out. Very unusual for me. Anyway I slammed the door and she only told me ages after the lock stuck and she had to climb out the window! It always makes me giggle to think of it. Never showed anger since

No. I never have. I never even expressed anger in any way. I never really felt anger toward any of them except the first one after he terminated me.

[RedSun]

Yes, I've been a complete brat, ignored her, put my feet on the chair, put my hands over my ears...she loves it she enjoys a challenge

[JustShakey]

I just dissociate when I'm freaked out. Nothing to see here. Carry on...

[Partless]

Originally Posted by JustShakey

I just dissociate when I'm freaked out. Nothing to see here. Carry on...

Nothing to add for OP, just saying reading this made me sad...

[JustShakey]

Originally Posted by Partless

Nothing to add for OP, just saying reading this made me sad...

I'm sorry that made you sad Partless. I'm working on it... I try to laugh about it in the meantime.

[junkDNA]

i stormed out of his office and ran to my car and he ran after me and wrote down my tag number and called the police bc i was suicidal and he was trying to get me to go to the hospital and i wasnt having that. but that was a long time ago.

[ThisWayOut]

I'm not an outwardly angry person (in fact, I've only just begun to acknowledge anger in myself in the past 4 years)... but I have shut down on T's. Once I almost left in tears, but the T asked me to sit back down and talk a bit more.

[MoxieDoxie]

I have ran out of the office twice. He never followed. I have not yelled or thrown anything.

[growlycat]

Years and years ago when I was a college student I got so mad at T that I kicked his door HARD after I had left and he had closed his door. He said it made all of the hairs stand up on the back of his neck. My brush with violence….

But on a warmer and fuzzier note, one time I was in an ugly-crying state, pacing his office, ready to walk out but not wanting to. He stopped talking at me and just embraced me. One of those breakthrough sessions for me.

[GeminiNZ]

I've stormed out without saying goodbye innumerable times over the four years i've been with T (though i always pay before i go). In fact, he's more surprised (and clearly delighted) when i do say goodbye. The end of session is still a big trigger for me.

And once, i angrily kicked his tissue box across the floor before storming out. Still have no idea what triggered that, and while i don't usually apologise for storming out, i did apologise for kicking the tissue box.

I also have flashbacks in session and dissociate extensively. I used to feel bone-deep levels of shame over all the 'freaking out' i do, but T gently reminds me over and over that they're normal trauma reactions from a very abnormal childhood. I think i'm finally starting to believe that.

[growlycat]

ps I apologized for kicking the door

[rainboots87]

I tend to shut down when I'm "freaked out." Only once I ran out of the office, but that was my 2nd meeting with a new T when I moved and was still super attached to my old T. I've never thrown anything, I tend to just cry, avoid eye contact, and check out mentally for all overwhelming emotions.

[magicalprince]

Nah I just end up dissociating everything away. For me freaking out looks like daydreaming. To the outside observer.

[Myrto]

I *wish* I could storm out. It would be so satisfying.
But I can't. I wish I could yell at her and leave never to return again.
I can't. So instead I pout and make sarcastic comments. But my therapist rarely falls into this trap.
I sometimes fantasize about throwing a pillow at her

Originally Posted by GeminiNZ

I've stormed out without saying goodbye innumerable times over the four years i've been with T (though i always pay before i go). In fact, he's more surprised (and clearly delighted) when i do say goodbye. The end of session is still a big trigger for me.

And once, i angrily kicked his tissue box across the floor before storming out. Still have no idea what triggered that, and while i don't usually apologise for storming out, i did apologise for kicking the tissue box.

I also have flashbacks in session and dissociate extensively. I used to feel bone-deep levels of shame over all the 'freaking out' i do, but T gently reminds me over and over that they're normal trauma reactions from a very abnormal childhood. I think i'm finally starting to believe that.

What you wrote about your Ts accepting attitude bought tears to my eyes, I think because I would like to feel similarly accepted.

With my first T, I have stormed out of his office. I yelled, grabbed my stuff, and left. I heard him yell my name and I never listened and just went to my car. Texted him and apologized. Punched the wall, broke my hand in session.

Current T; Thrown a tissue box, tore it apart. Got upset when he took his notebook out of my hand. Yelled, cried;a lot. had anxiety attacks. Punched the wall, put pressure on my hand; like digging my nails into my skin.