Cowardly reaction to seeing my therapist in public.

don't beat yourself up about it. im pretty sure i would have a panic attack if i saw my t in public. it's not cowardly... it's just the way you're wired at the moment.

I hate seeing people out-of-context. I switched to a different class in the same school recently and when walking to and from the classroom I always look down - I'm afraid to walk into students or teachers from my prior class. Well, I'm afraid of them seeing I see them (that's also the reason I never look into people's eyes, I'm afraid they see me seeing them - did I mention I have Asperger's?) and that I react the wrong way - acknowledge them when I'm not supposed to or, more often, not acknowledge them when I should have, or acknowledge them the wrong way. They might ask "How are you" and I hate that question, because according to my mom you're just supposed to answer "Fine, and you?" but I'm not fine and I hate lying, so what am I supposed to say?

So I'm most likely to pretend I didn't see her.

i saw my T coming in a restaurant i was in. i just stared at him bc we were going thru the doors at the same time. he had his gfs kids with him and he was holding their hands and singing that "this girl is on fire" song.i didnt talk to him . it was weird but not that weird. but he did mention at our session after that that i seemed uncomfortable.

I've never met my therapist in public.
But I fantasize about bumping into her. Like, in my mind, it would be great and we would chat and I would help her or something (my fantasies always involve some form of me helping her) and it would deepen our bond.
But then, I read your post and I think that perhaps, I'd react like you did. I think it's a strong possibility that I would become too overwhelmed with feelings.

Is it what happened to you? Maybe you reacted the way you did because she wasn't alone? (man, if my therapist wasn't alone, like with her kids, I'd run away FAST).

Their is nothing cowardly about it. It can happen between people in all walks of life. When we are nervous we do things like that. We all do. I do.
Do not be unkind to yourself by any actions. Life is like this.
without life like this things would be very boring.

She looked to be talking with someone she ran into because they had a cart too. Idk is she was with anyone I did not stay long enough to find out. I may call her tomorrow to talk to her but idk.

My therapist and I have borh been invited to a party by a mutual acquaintance. I am so conflicted. Do I talk to my T about it? Do I decline the invite outright?

Depending on your therapists title you may not both be able to attend. i would mention it. Your therapist will know the rules. In terms of how you would feel, would you be able to have a good time knowing your therapist is there?

I've posted about this before. Have never run into current T in public though she has accompanied me to the psych hospital and also offered to follow me to my old school (for a stressful event). This is of course different from running into her accidentally, so I was on the contrary comforted by her presence.

I did however run into ex-T multiple times while I was seeing her because she worked on campus and it was simply impossible to avoid each other for a whole year. In fact, I bumped into her an hour after our first session together and I was with a friend . I've also stood in line in front of her in the cafeteria, seen her walk past with her son (twice), to her car etc. and each time I completely freak out inside. Strangely, I secretly yearned for these chance encounters even though she would ignore me because I had such terrible transference at the time.