[ThingWithFeathers]

I think my session tomorrow is going to be a difficult one - perhaps even a breakthrough one.

Pocket riders, anyone?

[Raindropvampire]

No idea what a pocket rider is but I wish you all the strength you need to get through this.

[JustShakey]

I'm in

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[ThingWithFeathers]

Originally Posted by Raindropvampire

No idea what a pocket rider is but I wish you all the strength you need to get through this.

A pocket rider comes to session in a pocket for support It's just another term for supporters. I'll also fill you in on how it went afterwards. Thank you for your support

[The_little_didgee]

Originally Posted by ThingWithFeathers

A pocket rider comes to session in a pocket for support It's just another term for supporters. I'll also fill you in on how it went afterwards.

Does this mean you can view the thread on your phone while in session?

[ThingWithFeathers]

Originally Posted by The_little_didgee

Does this mean you can view the thread on your phone while in session?

I won't check during session, but before and after!

[ThingWithFeathers]

Plus, you will all be in my thoughts when I'm there.

[The_little_didgee]

Thank you. I've always wondered what a pocket rider was.

Well, I hope you have a good session. Sorry if it sounds generic, but I've never wished someone a good therapy session before.

[Partless]

Is there room in your pockets for me? Wish you the best.

[Jessica Hazlitt]

Let's do this!

*hug*

[ThingWithFeathers]

Originally Posted by Partless

Is there room in your pockets for me? Wish you the best.

There's always room for one more. Settle in with a hot cocoa and a soft cushion. All are welcome.

[nervous puppy]

Count me in, too!

I'll pass on the hot chocolate - milk allergy here. But you'll be in my thoughts. I wish you strength.

[ThisWayOut]

I'll join.

[musial]

Me too

[granite1]

im in and will be looking forward to hearing how it went

I'm in too. I'll be right there with you in your pocket. I'll try & behave while I'm there & I promise to be quiet. Xxx

Count me in too!

[Bill3]

Me too!

[KayDubs]

*squeezes in*


Also, googling "kitten in a pocket" is rather rewarding.

[Bipolarchic14]

Good luck tomorrow

[ThingWithFeathers]

Thank you everyone!

2 hours to go. My tummy is churning, heart is racing and head is spinning.

Hopefully tonight I'll be up for letting you all know how it goes, but I might be too shattered. I'll let you know soon though xx

[ThingWithFeathers]

Well, I didn't cry, but I was honest about how tough things have been for me lately. It was a difficult session, with a lot of silence and awkwardness on my part. But my t handled it well - talking to me, being with me, sitting with my emotions and hearing my pain. Given my level of instability, my increase in SH and serious sui thoughts and actions, my t decided we should call the crisis service - with the option of keeping myself safe or going to the ED. She will call me tomorrow to see how I'm going.

Since my session, the crisis team has seen me. I was not so honest with them, they decided I was not an immediate risk. After they left, I tried to take my life. I failed, took myself to the ED, told them what happened, got patched up and waited for an hour and a half for the crisis team again. I didn't want to see them AND I wanted to go home and smoke a joint, so I left.

Home now, not SH-ing but feeling incredibly pathetic and ashamed.

[ragsnfeathers]

Do you have any plans for what you'll do if it gets that bad again, at least until you talk to your therapist tomorrow?

[ThingWithFeathers]

I'm going to try snd get some sleep. If it gets that bad again, I guess I'll go back to the ED and stay there. In a way I feel like I made a rash, and perhaps the wrong, decision leaving. But think I'll make it through okay to speak with t. My biggest issue now is a feeling of deep regret, as well as feeling like a fool. I'm so ashamed of what's happened the last few hours.