I've discussed my issues with my T quite a few times on here, thanks for all your supportive responses guys. I had a huge amount of faith in my T, I believed that somehow if there were issues we could talk it out and reach an understanding eventually. I decided that no matter how hard it was I was not going to quit. I now wish I had quit earlier. I think it was bad therapy (with good bits too). During my therapy I got more and more anxious in my sessions and more and more distressed between sessions. I needed my T to sit and listen and smile at me and understand me, but somehow she got more and more challenging and analytical instead which made me more and more anxious, and she smiled less and less. She never probed and asked questions to clarify what I was tring to say but just leapt in with her thoughts which were often jarring and showed that she didn't get me. Im not quite myself at the moment, I think my therapy messed with my head, I'm sleeping badly, but hoping time will help. The word megalomaniac comes to mind when I think of her. I feel that she was well meaning, and it feels incomprehensible how she can have been so disinterested or incurious about me as a person. I kind of feel that perhaps she had to prove herself by giving all these interpretations to me and that she forgot that the primary function of a T is to understand a clients own world - or at least that is what I think a T should do. Despite all this I still retain affection for her.

Does sound she's trying to prove herself.
Hopefully u find someone else eventually. If that's what you desire

[LindaLu]

That sounds incredibly painful. The most important predictor of client outcome is a warm relationship with T. Conversely having a bad T (or ineffective, not-getting-it T) is probably harmful. You really need to save yourself from this distress. Hard as it is, you have probably come to the right decision. Maybe a more gentle, less jarring T can help, if you wanted to start over.

[Crescent Moon]

You are infinitely smarter than I was. I stayed in a genuinely toxic 'therapy' for years and it took twice as many years of more therapy with someone else to at least resolve some of it. I bear lasting scars from it that make me so sad. I wish I'd had enough ego strength to leave before it did as much damage as it did.

[musinglizzy]

Hugs to you. I feel your pain. (my crying in therapy post) I have a session with my T today after texts and Emails throughout the weekend, she has me in a great deal of distress. It's not effing worth it! I tried to cancel today, but told her I'd show up, but that's probably all I will accomplish today. It's just so complicated. I'm ready to quit myself. She told me just last week that no one can hurt me anymore like they did when I was younger. I thought to myself, "but you can." And she is. It's not worth it. So, I don't know what will happen today, but I have no plans to offer any more information than what she already knows, so she'll have to go with that. And if I feel the need, I will get up and walk out early, and she knows that. I will not break down and become vulnerable. I'm done with that. Hopefully I can be as strong as you are.

[JaneTennison1]

I think this this is a strong and powerful choice for you. You should feel empowered at removing yourself from a situation that didn't sound healthy. Sending many hugs and wishing you luck moving forward.

well done for making that decision, its a tough one.