[rainbow8]

It was so easy to email my T that I wanted to talk about the parts who have a crush on her and find her attractive. But I'm thinking about actually talking about it again. I stumble over my words when I talk to her about feelings for her. If we do IFS I can close my eyes. I hope she won't look so good; then I can forget the whole issue. But I think it's important. I'm so stirred up thinking about her again, and I need to explore it more. I don't want it to take up my whole session. It's so embarrassing! I think I'm fighting the feelings. Have distracted myself for about a week which is good. But now I have a lot to talk about plus the feelings about her. An hour goes by too fast, and then I have to get on with my life for 2 weeks. The cycle is depressing right now.

[musinglizzy]

My T allows, and encourages, Emails because she knows she can get way more out of me that way. We can then use my sessions to talk about them. I know eventually she'd like to me talk more openly, but by allowing me use of Email disclosures, I had been starting to have an easier time talking in person.

I don't have a crush on my T or anything, but I do feel an attachment to her somewhat. Which I wish I didn't have.

I emailed my t quite a few times describing how I felt about my attachment to her. It was always so much easier to start talking about it that way, I would say "Um you know that email I sent you the other day...." and off we would go. I needed to talk about it often. I am so thankful that she never seemed to mind my need to do so.