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the baby falcon is so cute but mom and dad are new an have not seemed to figure out they need to feed it .mom almost did once .she was pulling apart a bird dad had caught but ended up not giving the baby any even though it was screaming . I hope they figure it out soon . mom flew away with what was left of the dead bird

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They were in a roundabout! Nobody knows how to drive in a freakin roundabout. You just close your eyes and press on the gas. I hate roundabouts, in case you hadnt already guessed .

so I see my T in about 30 min for the time in 14 days . kind of worried about the fact that I called her yesterday. she sounded annoyed but I cant tell if that is just how I am seeing it because I know she doesn't like me calling her . I only exsist between the hour of 305 pm and 345 pm Tuesday

I hope it goes well, granite.

Good luck Granite.
I feel pants. Where's the wine?

I think I need to sit still and just breathe for a bit. I feel a knot in my stomach and panic in my brain because I can't find some important documents. I know they are in this house somewhere. I just told the negative voices to shut the f up unless of course they are going to tell me where the paperwork is.

(heh - sometimes the stuff I learned in therapy is pretty amusing to utilize. Nobody else is home, so I yelled at the negative voices out loud. Now I shall proceed to thank the panic feelings for reinforcing the importance of the papers I'm searching for so I'll put them in a better place next time, and then "put those feelings over there" and kick them the hell away from me.) It's all good. I've got this.

Wine is a good idea. I have about half a glass left in the fridge. Just enough to help me calm down and find the damn papers without tearing up my house.

Art, deep breaths, in...out...
Wine, in.....in....

Mast, what's wrong?

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But they're Swedish! Not American. Or Irish

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Which reminds me, I need to go to the store. The wine is getting dangerously low...

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I need to call my T and see her again I don't know if she will today was horrible and I am so spiraling .I know she hates for me to call im so out of control . last time I was so bad and it was not even this bad . I just want to quit my life ,hurt myself and just be crazy. my T says I am feeling this way because of the mother

i think Xanax and vodka is in order for me right now

so scared to call her ..i know she is so angry because i told someone i was in T. i didn't mean to f up sp sp badly and now i feel i need to just quit everything

i didn't know telling someone im in T would ruin my relationship with my t

Call her Granite.

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Why would telling someone that ruin your relationship? I don't understand. Can you tell us more about what happened?

You ok Mast??

What happened? I hope you can call her and reassure yourself.

There's no reason she should be angry because you told someone you are in therapy. My t told me last week, that it's MY therapy and I'm free to talk about it to whomever I want, that she is the only one bound by confidentiality. This came up because I told her I had talked about being in therapy at a recent lecture I went to at a Friends of Jung thing. She asked if I used her name and I said no I didn't know if I should or not. I'm sure everything's fine. I hope you can call her and reassure yourself!

i called her for all the good it will do

Good for you, Granite! Hang in there.

i love you so much MKAC. she said it made me unsafe . i don't know how dangerous this crafty friend is but my T said even if she didn't kknow her she wouldn't take her on as a client. i don't know what i did . my T said i did nothing rong and she was glad i gave her the heads up and that my friend actually was on her list but it hasd been ddealt with . but she was worried about me now i want to quit T and going to this scrap store . my T even suggested i might find a different store to hang out with