[Psychotic_Phil]

They all say Bipolar with possibility of something else and they are probably right. My mom said it the firts time at the hospital and what do you know? She's right, right? The Shrink says it and all? Fine, now %#@&#! what? I hate this baby %#@&#!. Just tell me. They can tell me what my life is right? They can see into the future right? Or is it that obvious. I have no life and will continue to have no life because of them. I need a different life and a different perspective. I've never had psychosis or mood symptoms. It's all anxiety and depression. %#@&#! piece of %#@&#! life %#@&#! with me.

[Rapunzel]

Phil, what do you want them to say? What do you want us to say? What do you want your life to be? You don't need a diagnosis to define your life, and a diagnosis should not be the definition of your life. I told you about my brother. Are you hoping for a life like his? You are the only one who can choose what your life will be.

[Psychotic_Phil]

no I don't want to have a life like that. What life would that be? He had a more serious affliction. As opposed to me.

[Psychotic_Phil]

Now I don't know anymore. And personally am starting to lose my patience. All I know is that I cannot be in treatment. Treatment is worse than the illness. At least feel somewhat human without pills. Plus I don't need them. I can't do it now but soon, no more.

[sunrise]

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Treatment is worse than the illness. At least feel somewhat human without pills.

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Are there any treatment options besides meds that are available?

[Psychotic_Phil]

I don't want treatment. My statements are probably false. I just want an illness right?

What is the point of labeling an illness if it's not going to be treated? Our treatment is conceptualized through a framework of our illness.

[sunrise]

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I don't want treatment. My statements are probably false. I just want an illness right?

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Why do you want an illness?

[Hopefull]

Firstly, they do NOT know your future. What ever mental health issue you have, it is just a problem that you have. As my T says, it does not define WHO we are. It is just one thing about us.
As the above posting said, "Why do you want an illness?" Your comment that you just want an illness but not treatment confuses me.
Risperdol is an anti-psychotic which can be used on the manic stage of bi-polar. Is that what you are experiencing? If so, i can see why you might not want treatment at this point in time. I have heard that the manic stage can be rather pleasurable and I suspect that I'd enjoy such a stage except for the consequences afterward. I also have a friend on Risperdal and she says that it makes her hands shake. She states that she smokes in order to steady her hands. Are you having trouble with side effects? I think I remember that Lithium has some annoying side effects too.
Since Bi-polar bear also has bi-polar (I am assuming that is the reason for the name-correct me I'm full of it), then your problem probably has a strong biological component and might require some kind of medication. I had a co-worker of mine with bi-polar who would take medication. So I suspect that the medication for bi-polar is worse than my AD. I hope you find a way to have a great future.

[Psychotic_Phil]

The risperdal is used for psychosis independent of mood symptoms. i don't want an illness. And I don't care anymore. Now on 2 mg. standard dose, I'm sedated.

[Hopefull]

Yeah, I know that Risperdal can be used for psychosis but mentioned a possibility of bi-polar and did not mention any psychosis.
I don't know what to say further to you except that I can see that you are hurting. (((psychotic_Phil)))