[Yearning0723]

I use the term "ending" loosely, since this "ending" process has lasted two months, but still. She is talking more seriously about a termination timeline, as in going down to every two weeks after two or three more sessions, but I have been in way too much distress recently, and she has been too good to me...she is literally the only person in my life right now who I can talk to, and I am feeling so alone, and when she leaves I will be even more alone. Not to mention that she said she wouldn't leave me and I wouldn't lose her and that's exactly what's happening...

I have literally had four sessions and two impromptu phone sessions over the past nine days, which is way more than I have ever had with her (or any therapist), and still I have been feeling way more hopeless than I have in a long time and sui feelings are back, and I've tried to talk about it with all the remaining people in my life but none of them are interested in listening...I even tried calling several crisis lines several times, but it didn't help much. And T's caring just makes it worse...I emailed her today to ask if she had some time to talk, and she called literally five minutes after getting the email and stayed on with me for an hour and she kept saying she was glad I reached out to her and she cared about me and she thought I was a good person and could I try to hold onto that, and keep her words with me, and all of that just makes losing her so much harder. It's too intense right now and I don't know what to do with that. I literally have no one else.

[Coco3]

I'm sorry you're going through this I can imagine you're very upset about it and that you feel that you need her more right now bevause of that. She sounds like a good T.

Did I understand it correctly that therapy is ending because she is leaving? Did she refer you to someone else?

[Yearning0723]

Originally Posted by Coco3

I'm sorry you're going through this I can imagine you're very upset about it and that you feel that you need her more right now bevause of that. She sounds like a good T.

Did I understand it correctly that therapy is ending because she is leaving? Did she refer you to someone else?

Therapy is ending because she feels she doesn't have the skills/experience needed to help me with the amount of distress I've been in and the complexity of my traumatic experiences (her words). I am in the process of looking for a new T, but it's not just about a new T...it's about losing literally the only person who I can talk to and who understands me in my whole life...