"You are not split"

I've been battling with an issue. For a moment I nearly followed the 'mob'. My feelings were like there's, but my thinking was struggling with it. I didn't want to be that person. People I know became ugly. But if I feel as they do doesn't that make me like them?
T said feelings are just that. We all have feelings it's wheather we act on them that tells us apart.
I couldn't tell her what this about exactly, I gave examples.
I said I feel this is splitting me in half. I am attempting to show evidence to oppose what the 'mob' are saying , but because I know their feelings. I to have them doesn't that make me a hypocritical?
T said no, it shows you infact are not split over this because you feel their feelings around whatever this is, but you're choosing to do what you feel makes you someone you can live with.
She added, intact it is the 'mob' who are split because they believe their way is the right way. They're convinced in their belief. Where as you are feeling how they are but also hold the thought that it is not the right thing to act on. To go against those feelings.
I'd never looked at being whole v being split like that.
I said, but it's hard having to wrestle with this. T nodded yes.
She said your mother was cruel and belived herself to be loving. She was split. we have feelings of horrible things We'd like to do to act those out, but we don't. Well most don't.
I felt better after this.
I'd rather struggle with right and wrong than be sure I'm right in my wrongness.
To see people I know act their ugliness is shocking.

I like the way your T explained this. I think it makes a good point that can be hard for a lot of people to articulate.