[rainbow8]

I rambled on about the process of hiring a caregiver, and other developments, then T wanted to know if I told my H everything I want to before he dies. I said I can't do that! She encouraged me to hold her hand, close my eyes, and "talk" to him. I did it, and a few tears trickled down. I kept saying I don't want to cry but I do. I had a feeling it was past the time; she let me stay 15 minutes over! I don't know if I can tell my H what I told T. I'm afraid! Anyway, I can't believe I let a few tears come down!!! I felt better after that. It was nice holding her hand for so long too!

[IndestructibleGirl]

Rainbow, as a fellow dry-eyed client, I am so impressed by this! Fair play to you woman It shows how much your trust has evolved on a subconscious level that this could happen.

I am so sorry about the content as well - it sounds incredibly hard. Hugs to you.

Congratulations on tears in therapy. I know therapists typically strive for that. It appears to be a medal of honor for them if a client cries. I have read your posts before, is it possible you focus too much on holding your therapist's hand?

[rainbow8]

Originally Posted by Aloan

Congratulations on tears in therapy. I know therapists typically strive for that. It appears to be a medal of honor for them if a client cries. I have read your posts before, is it possible you focus too much on holding your therapist's hand?

No, I don't think I concentrate too much on holding my T's hand. Thank you for your opinion, though.

[velcro003]

Originally Posted by Aloan

Congratulations on tears in therapy. I know therapists typically strive for that. It appears to be a medal of honor for them if a client cries.

I am pretty sure if I ever cry in therapy that my T might jump up and down and clap.

[velcro003]

But, YAY RAINBOW! (sort of, i mean this is a terrible topic and thing you are going through)

[rainbow8]

Originally Posted by IndestructibleGirl

Rainbow, as a fellow dry-eyed client, I am so impressed by this! Fair play to you woman It shows how much your trust has evolved on a subconscious level that this could happen.

I am so sorry about the content as well - it sounds incredibly hard. Hugs to you.

Thank you. Yes! I NEVER cry with other people and never cried in 25 years of therapy! I never trusted anyone as much as I trust my current T. I wish it weren't about what it is too.

[rainbow8]

Originally Posted by velcro003

But, YAY RAINBOW! (sort of, i mean this is a terrible topic and thing you are going through)

I know. In a way it's better that I cry about my H than my T. It wasn't about connecting to HER, but to help me not regret telling him things I appreciate about him. Not sure when I will tell him, though. It's hard for me.

[growlycat]

What a breakthrough!! I hope you are getting the support you need right now.

I often think either with my aging parents or my aging T--have I said everything I want to to them all? Probably not, it is a scary notion!!

[Gavinandnikki]

Oh Rainbow, you are such a sweet woman -hope you don't mind me saying that. As you know, I shed gallons of tears in my therapy. Personally, I feel tears are cathartic.

You have a lot to cry about. If you need to shed more, let them come. Just let them come.

HUGS

[rainbow8]

Originally Posted by Gavinandnikki

Oh Rainbow, you are such a sweet woman -hope you don't mind me saying that. As you know, I shed gallons of tears in my therapy. Personally, I feel tears are cathartic.

You have a lot to cry about. If you need to shed more, let them come. Just let them come.

HUGS

Awww, Pam. That's so nice of you to say. Thank you. Somehow I managed to tell my H what I wanted to, and I cried real tears with him. I feel relieved. I have a great T. She gets me to do stuff even when I say I can't!!