This kind of goes for both my psychologist and psychiatrist but anyway I kind of want to tell them about certain things because I feel like I need to talk about it because it is making me upset but I am too scared half the time. With my psychologist I am scared because I feel like he might have I don't know how to explain this but like ties maybe or connections I don't know with people who want to hurt me and I also feel like something bad will happen if I tell him. And I get scared with my psychiatrist because he used to work with the people at the hospital that will hurt me so I never know if I can trust him and sometimes I think I can but other times I get really scared and when I do tell him things he says that he is really pleased but then I don't know if he is pleased because he is collecting information to use to hurt me and ugh I don't know this is all hard to explain. But anyway the stuff I wanted to talk about was kind of about the other dimensions and also the demons a bit but k am too scared most of the time and I never know how to explain it in the right words. I don't even know what I want from this I think maybe I just want to know it will be ok but I don't even know if I could believe it is someone said so ugh I am sorry I really don't know anymore.

[IrisBloom]

Eden, you can PM me if you want someone to talk to. I would love to help you try to sort things out. I'm no expert but I can listen if nothing else.

I am in the US central time zone, I am online about 12pm-12am.

I just dont know what to think anymore my head keeps changing its mind.

[Bipolar Warrior]

I'm sorry to hear that you are still struggling. I wish I could do something to help. All I can say is that I still think you should talk to a professional about all of this, because it is extremely worrying, and I can't imagine that anyone would want to hurt you in any way. I think that's part of your illness, believing that someone is out to hurt you, and that must be so scary for you, which is why you really need to let someone in so they can help you get it under control.

Please take care of yourself, eden. Be kind enough to yourself to ask for help when you are feeling scared. Don't hide away and suffer in silence.

I am here for you if you ever need someone to talk to.

They want to hurt me because of some stuff well becuase i know something and also because someone /something made them and is kind controlling them but it is hard to explain. even if i did tell them though i dont see how or why they could help exactly and i am scared they would want to tell my parents and something bad would happen.