[stolen_innocence08]

I had extensive help through out my teenage years, therapy, dbt, hospital admissions, residential treatment for attachment disorder and BPD.
Officially I stopped this when entering my 20's. Apart from a few blips I thought I was cured. I thought I'd addressed my problems. Really I hadn't as I never trusted enough to speak. I stopped attempting suicide and self harmng and began working.

I went through sexual abuse as a young kid and dysfunctional family issues. I am now in my mid twenties and feeling ****IGN HORRENDOUS yet entirely functional. I believe the BPD to have resurfaced and my sexual abuse is effecting me quite a lot on a day to day basis.

I decided to find another therapist though nobody knows. It's something I do on my own as my own choice. The therapist has no idea of my history at all. We get on well but my BPD attachment has been horrendous and its happening all over again. I've only seen her three times and havent touched on my issues. I am completely obsessed with her and its making me feel ill. I have self harmed and think about ending my life. I dont know what to do. Shall I tell her?

[Salmon77]

I'm sorry you're feeling horrendous, that sounds very difficult. But yes, I think you must tell your therapist about what's really bothering you in order for her to help you.

[BudFox]

So it is a matter of not knowing if you can trust her? if so, that would seem to be totally natural given what you've been thru. What does your gut tell you?