[AnaWhitney]

I nearly always have a drink and sometimes 2 before a session. It helps me walk up to the door but I have never mentioned this before. I've always been able to function fully after 1 or 2. This week I had a few more than that. I don't know if she noticed, she didn't say anything. I think I was a lot more direct in what I actually wanted to say, so I got to the important stuff fast. But I do remember being stuck every time she asked a question because I think I was too numb to find anything within myself that I didn't already prepare when I was sober. So it was productive in one way but not so much in another.
So the problem is, I remember agreeing to think about and prepare stuff for next week. Possibly some of the questions that I couldn't answer. But I haven't got a clue what these are. I ALWAYS do my homework and show it in session so what do I say next week? ''Sorry I was drunk last week so I don't remember what we talked about?'' I feel really stupid and don't want to admit that I came in like this, especially because I might need to do it again. I don't want her watching for it in future.
Any suggestions would be appreciated

[AllHeart]

Do you honestly think your T didn't have a clue you were drunk? She may not have said anything, but, I would think a T could of easily figured it out.

[AnaWhitney]

Originally Posted by AllHeart

Do you honestly think your T didn't have a clue you were drunk? She may not have said anything, but, I would think a T could of easily figured it out.

I think whether she knows or not is irrelevant. She didn't say anything so my situation is still the same. I still have to try and explain why I haven't got a clue what we talked about. If I didn't have to do that it wouldn't matter if she knew because then neither of us would be mentioning it, we'd be able to just carry on from last week. Hope that makes sense!

[Cinnamon_Stick]

Most therapists are very intunive and can tell if you are not yourself. Its a pretty big chance she noticed. If I were you I would go to the next season and apologize for being drunk.

I think that honesty is the best approach. I also think that sober therapy is better. I find it hard to walk through the door too each time.

[AllHeart]

Originally Posted by AnaWhitney

I think whether she knows or not is irrelevant. She didn't say anything so my situation is still the same. I still have to try and explain why I haven't got a clue what we talked about. If I didn't have to do that it wouldn't matter if she knew because then neither of us would be mentioning it, we'd be able to just carry on from last week. Hope that makes sense!

My point to T knowing you were drunk is that when you tell her this next week:

Originally Posted by AnaWhitney

''Sorry I was drunk last week so I don't remember what we talked about?'' I feel really stupid and don't want to admit that I came in like this, especially because I might need to do it again. I don't want her watching for it in future.

she won't be shocked or upset. You don't need to feel stupid about it at all. We are all only human.

Telling T straight up might also help open the door to discussing why you felt the need to get drunk before session, and also why you feel you might need to do it again.

[blacklight]

it'd be a huge step forward if you were to admit to that and let her know
even though you say it helps you to walk up the door and maybe even open up more, I think you're starting to realize it's doing more harm than good.
good luck (:

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[AnaWhitney]

I hear you now, thank you

[mcl6136]

There is also another thread about going to therapy....high. You're not the first or only one to do this!
Forgive yourself for doing so and try it sober. It may be tougher in the moment but I think you will benefit a lot more.