I was back with my fear of hearing neighbours music/daily living noises in T. I've revisited this so -many-times *yawns at self*.

Today I said to T that the fear I feel when I hear my neighbours is akin to the fear a baby feels When the mother leaves the room, I think. I added, I'm only thinking that because of how I witness my granddaughter get upset when get mother returns after being away, it may not really be about that.
T said, yes but that scenario resonates with you. How about this, "when a mother walks into another room away from baby, a baby experiences that as 'bad' the mother becomes 'bad'. A good enough mother will comfort tge baby by calling out of popping in and out to reasure. I think in your case, your mother was repressed, her absence remained 'bad' and the noises you heard coming from where she were, became 'bad' and directed toward you.

Yes! That did resonate. I told T I feel sick in my stomach thinking about that. I can't quiet grasp it, but I can see it. Is in front of my eyes.

T said, when you hear your neighbours, it puts you in the past, we've got to get your in to the here and now.

I left session knowing all of that is working itself out within me.

Thank gawd for therapy!

[AnaWhitney]

Thank you for sharing your experiences in such detail, I have found reading them very helpful and I feel less alone when I think of my own fears that seem impossible to understand.
And I'm so glad for you that you are making progress