Do you feel like a burden?

I often feel like a burden. Especially because I still don't talk a lot in sessions and because I make very very slow progress. I know she's a T, she get paid for this and she has chosen this profession, so she should know how hard sessions can be. But still.

I don't think of myself as a burden, more of an annoyance at times. I am not a demanding client, I never contact T outside of my weekly session. But sometimes I think that just by turning up and speaking, I must be annoying the hell out of her. She has never done anything to make me feel this way but I always think that I must be irritating everyone I come into contact with, like I'm one of those faces you just want to slap. So for a T I would imagine that must get multiplied by 100 seeing as they have to sit there looking at me for an hour and sometimes longer, watching me squirm and fiddle and attempt to speak or even worse sit in silence pretending to think but actually just staring into space because I'm unable to think.
Ts are such patient people. I should add that in Ireland therapy is much more affordable than in other countries. I feel I don't pay enough for what I get so I can't convince myself it's all good because the therapist rakes it in at the clients expense.

Yes. Especially for the last few weeks. I'm happy he hasn't left, but I'm not sure why.

Yes,

I feel like she probably dreads me, though she's consistently been warm and calm and attentive.

How could I be a burden? I'm both the product and the supply.