[LittleMouse]

I saw my T today and came home feeling really rotten. I just could not connect today and felt really out there alone even though I know the was there for me. Usually my time makes me feel connected to someone but not today. I could not talk and even when I did I could not feel anything much. Felt like I was just going through the motions. I hate sessions like this. Anyone else have the same experience?

[Nikki2000]

Hi LittleMouse

I am so sorry your session was hard today... i totally know what you mean... saw my T yesterday evening and it felt exactly as you have described... i came home feeling upset, alone, frustrated and totally disconnected from my T...

the only comfort i can offer is that i have felt like this before and it has always passed... the connection is there, its just sometimes it gets misplaced....

i hope very much that you do have a good connection with your T and that you can hold on to the fact that although it wasnt there today... you will get it back...

best wishes Nikki x

[sidony]

Geez I had a rotten session a few hours ago. So yeah you're not alone. I didn't have much to say except to express my extreme pessimism about the group therapy I'm also in (something I mentioned in my other thread). I couldn't think of anything else I wanted to talk about and I felt like a failure. Plus I was all uptight and fidgety and couldn't look at him much. So that was my therapy session today. Sometimes it just sucks.

But there's a lot of good in a lot of sessions so it's worth it in my opinion!

Sidony

[LittleMouse]

Thanks I do have a really good connection with my T and I guess that is what gets to me when I have sessions like today. I wonder if I will loose this one connection and then have no one. Thanks for your input and kind words and I will try to see it as just "today" and not a loss.

hey. yeah, i have sessions like that too sometimes. i think that it would have been better if i didn't go even. 'cause usually i look forward to them so much and then to find myself feeling disconnected and unheard and stuff can be really hard. disappointing. and then i usually start wondering why things went that way. is he sick of me? does he not want to work with me anymore? am i boring him? does he not care about me anymore? round and round and feel kinda mildly frantic and concerned and alone...

but, yeah, that sense of connection always comes back. next week. or the week after. sometimes i think it is about my pushing him away (either consciously or unconsciously). other times i think he really is a bit distracted. i guess he has bad days too. feels sick sometimes. ugh. human frailty :-(

can you contact your therapist between sessions in any way? write to him or something like that? some people find that helps. sometimes i think it can help to just tell them that one felt very disconnected. sometimes talking about having felt that way can help one feel better.

sometimes.

hang in there. let us know how your next session goes?

[Perna]

LittleMouse, I enjoyed hearing about your experience with feeling like you couldn't connect. I alway felt like the connection was accidental and I was "lucky" when it happened or that my T knew how to make it happen and somehow did. Connection always puzzled me! Do you know how/when yours happens or doesn't, etc.?