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I've been comforting myself to sleep with images of violently stabbing T.
I've written in the past how I use to hold a knife to my adoptive mothers throat. It was 'our game'. T said love had gotten enmeshed with anger between my mother and I. That playing on the very edge was the only way I could get close to her and mother would respond happily. Maybe this is what is going on with these thoughts. I feel so frustrated that I, not T, but I! Can't let myself go and allow myself to just relax with T. I shall Tally to her about this today |
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We talked about it. Not sure it's finished with. One thing I did say when T mentioned my anger toward her, I said sometimes I feel there is a 'good you and a bad you'. T replied "isn't that true for everyone"?
They defused it. I'm always expecting T to deny such statements. But when she answers honestly, there is nothing more to be said. I like that. That real gut honesty. |
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