[retro_chic]

I don't really feel like going into detail right now but my session today was really hard. I just feel so exhausted, overwhelmed and anxious right now. I just want to quit everything. I don't want to go to work tomorrow. I only started this job on Monday and I'm already stressed out. I hate myself so much i can't even describe it. I'm not sure what I'm hoping to achieve with this post; I guess I just need to vent.

Venting is good. Are you able to find a distraction

[retro_chic]

Originally Posted by rcat

Venting is good. Are you able to find a distraction

Not really. It's just after midnight where I am and I have to be up in 6 hours

[retro_chic]

So it's the next day and I feel horrible. I've been lying in bed for the past half hour trying to avoid the inevitable. Today is going to be actual torture.

[growlycat]

How did it go today?

[retro_chic]

Originally Posted by growlycat

How did it go today?

My day was okay. Work wasn't busy and it was one of my colegue's last day today so we had tacos for lunch which was fun. I managed to block our most of what I was feeling before so that helped me get through the day. The "blocking out" is part of what made my session so difficult though. Unfortunately it is the only way I can manage to be a semi-functional human at the moment so yeah...

I'm going to email my T tonight even though I don't really expect much of a response. I just need to tell her all the things I couldn't say in our session.

My T always says our defences are there for a reason, and aren't necessarily a bad thing.
Be kind to yourself and patient with yourself. I'm glad work was okay for you.