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[Walking Man]

I understand exactly how you feel. My feelings were not accepted or validated by my parents, and I've really never had anyone do so. When my therapist goes into "fix it" mode it makes me feel terrible. What I need more than anything is a sympathetic ear. When I get push back, even when justified and exactly right, I feel terrible. It's like my mom talking. I am very hard on myself, so I don't need more of that voice. I need someone telling me I'm ok and that I'm not alone. Of course I need perspective, just like anyone else, but I need to feel understood first. When I feel like someone hears me and cares about me it gives me the strength to do the things I need to get better, and then I succeed. When someone tries to correct my thinking or tell me I need to change without first showing that they understand I just fall apart. I know what's wrong with me, and can beat myself up all day long about it, but I get overwhelmed. It doesn't do any good. I need someone to be there for me. I think my therapist wants to help, but her temperament and training are at odds with what I really need. I try to work more her way, but it's always a struggle.