Think therapist is stalking me but probably in my head

My therapist knows that I post on here. I have mentioned Psych Central in many of my sessions because it has helped me. When I first mentioned to her that I was posting on here I told her I was scared that she would be reading the forums. She said she wanted this place to be whatever I needed it to be and has seen how much support I have gotten and she wants this to be a calming place and for me to not worry about her reading on here. Now that I have been on PC for months I don't post anything she doesn't know about or that I wouldn't want her to read so I would be fine if she was reading on here.

"Last therapy session, it felt like my T was bringing things up or leading the direction of the conversation towards things I had said on this forum."

It's hard to know, without specifics, if your therapist is leading the direction of your conversation based on things you've brought up yourself in session--things that, over time, a therapist starts to put together--or were very unusual items that no one could guess at, that you posted on a forum. If you're really bothered and want to know, maybe make a comment in the other forum that's too wildly specific to guess at and see if it comes up.

Partly, I think that we all tend to think we're unique, when in fact therapists have seen many people with enough similarities to start to form ideas--they may not be true ideas, but they think of these things based on how common our lives are, even when there's something we feel very extreme that we've gone through.

My own therapist once said something that I'd used on a post here, and it was peculiar enough that I thought hmmmm, but I let it go because I have enough other things to worry about. It would not bother me that she read anything here, but it would bother me to have a therapist with so much time on her hands to even look for my posts. I would find that unsettling.

I also think when our minds are focused on something specific--like a new car we want--we see it everywhere, even though it's not showing up any more often than it did before. So, it could be that these things you're not talking about in therapy are on your mind so much that you're hearing it and sensing it from your therapist, but it's really coming from your own mind, making meaning of things based on what's most got your attention mentally.

I don't really know why it's an issue if my t reads on here. I don't care. I probably wouldn't want my dad to read on here because I post sometimes that he is pain in my behind. But I know hd doesn't read forums. Other people I am ok with. My life is pretty ordinary. I don't know what my t could read that would be unsettling. Nothing really

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Thanks for all the replies. I woke up this morning and realised I was over anxious about this yesterday. It actually hadn't bothered me until a few days after the session and then it just suddenly kind of caved in on me. I kind of don't care anymore now (but only because I think it isn't happening, not because I'd be ok with my T reading my **** online).

Anyway, reading this thread, TIL: Other people are totally ok with people knowing their innermost thoughts. I think a lot of people here thought I'd been saying bad things or things that would cause upset. It's really not that, it's just a matter of privacy of a kind. I post anonymously because there's basically nothing I put online that I would ever tell a soul. Stuff I would actually tell 'real' people doesn't make it online. Two separate worlds for me. I guess I always assumed it was the same for everyone!

Just to underline....my life is also very ordinary and there is nothing unsettling about me or my life online...

It really isn't about what he would feel. I think he'd be delighted to be honest to read me without the filter. But I don't want that.

Its the same for me

GO UK! Repression 4eva

(Thanks, though, good to know I'm not alone on this).

Your feelings are completely understandable.

I actually feel more comfortable talking about my issues on here than with a therapist. I feel like when I am talking to that one person, I am tailoring my speech for them. While on here, I am speaking to a body of different kinds of people. Still, I am not even really being myself, yikes!

I am putting out a lot of personal stuff and inner thoughts I never tell to my friends IRL. To those people, I am just trying to act like a normal friend. I don't cry on their shoulder or air my dirty laundry. Plus, people gossip.

But, I definitely have not revealed my deepest, darkest thoughts. I've held back imagining I might insight an angry mob to come after me with burning torches and chase me, lol.

An idea is that lately you really got focused on that issue and you posted some new insights both on that forum and told him some things linked to that too (even if not the exact same things as on the forum) and so then yes the timing of him having an insight would be reasonable.

Overall your scenario that he would be following you on the forum is very unrealistic.

PS: I looked at your threads because I was delighted someone finally understood a bit of what I was posting about so I was curious if you posted about issues similar to mine - that's how I found this thread.

I can't imagine the woman could pick me out of a room with two other people in it - let alone on an anonymous forum, but I have not said anything here that I have not said to her in some fashion directly.