[sinking]

I have lost any faith in docs, Pdocs, T and meds.
Nothing is helping. Ive spent the day at home in bed crying. I cant go on like this. Of course i have suicidal thoughts and ideations.

What do you do when you have lost faith in everything? When you feel so hopeless and helpless?

[SarahSweden]

I´ve had similar thoughts and still have and I´ve told both my T and my Pdoc I have suicidal thoughts for example. Even if you perhaps don´t have that much faith in them I think you should tell them or e-mail them if you don´t want to address them directly. If you are within some kind of health facility there must be other people to help you if you don´t think those who see you are a good fit.

I don´t know about the patient rights where you live but where I live patients always have a right to see other doctors, therapists and so on if the ones you see aren´t a good fit. You should never have to accept feeling ill.

[stopdog]

I walk my dogs.
I am not saying this flippantly - seriously - I would walk even without the dogs, but the dogs make it even better. I walk the dogs and watch opera with the cat and don't act on other thoughts.

[musinglizzy]

Some may not find it therapeutic, but I walk with my dog, go for a horseback ride, or shovel horse poop (all of which I've done today). LOL. It really IS therapeutic throwing those horse apples around.... of course I know a lot of you don't just have a horse sitting around.... but animals and the outdoors help me. I've gone into TV land, and that really hasn't gotten me anywhere but lazy....

[Hopelesspoppy]

Originally Posted by stopdog

I walk my dogs.
I am not saying this flippantly - seriously - I would walk even without the dogs, but the dogs make it even better. I walk the dogs and watch opera and don't act on other thoughts.

That is a beautiful strategy. Good for you!

[Hopelesspoppy]

Originally Posted by sinking

I have lost any faith in docs, Pdocs, T and meds.
Nothing is helping. Ive spent the day at home in bed crying. I cant go on like this. Of course i have suicidal thoughts and ideations.

What do you do when you have lost faith in everything? When you feel so hopeless and helpless?

Ma sei italiana?

[SoupDragon]

I just take a day at a time. Decide today is not the right day to make final decisions.

[retro_chic]

I was feeling similarly a couple days ago but the feeling is beginning to pass now. I guess it is important to remember that no feeling lasts for ever. Something else that helps me is to remind myself that I have nothing to lose by giving meds/therapy one last shot before giving up.

I also second the animal thing. I'm more of a cat person so I like to pet and cuddle my cat when I'm feeling bad. Her purring is very soothing to me.

[Chummy]

I've felt like that for most of last year. And that year before too, but that year I didn't saw a T or Pdoc.
Last year I tried several meds and it took more than 6 months until there was finally a med that worked a little bit. It wasn't until October/November when I finally started to feel less bad.
I'm not sure what kept me going. There were many times I wanted to quit, because there wasn't any improvement. I think I kept going to T and Pdoc because I didn't really had another choice.

Going through days when you feel that bad, so hopeless, it's really hard. I often laid on my bed crying. There wasn't really anything to make me feel better. I watched stupid television like Family Guy and Tel Sell. That helped me to calm down a bit, to take my mind of real life. Eventually I had to stop crying because it's exhausting to feel so so low.

Keep going to your T and Pdoc (if they're good). Keep trying meds. There are so many. Hopefully there's one that can help you to feel a little less bad.
I don't know much more. I've searched the internet many times to find advice on what to do when you feel so hopeless and when your sucidal ideation is so big, but everything I found wasn't helpful for me.

[sinking]

Originally Posted by Hopelesspoppy

Ma sei italiana?

si, sono italiana. anche tu?

[sinking]

I have cats. they help a bit but its not about that. its just that i have lost any faith in being helped and healed

[stopdog]

For me, the pets are just something outside of me to focus on which I find helpful in times of despair. Like the motion of walking. Walking wards off despair while I do it. The despair comes back when I stop, but at least for the time while walking - it was in the background.
I was not saying pets are going to fix everything.
I think sometimes the idea of help or living with something changes into something that is useful even if not the first idea.

[Ocean Swimmer]

Tell us everything beautiful about Italy. My Grandfather was born there but passed before I was born.

[Cinnamon_Stick]

I am sorry you are feeling suicidal and hopeless and depressed. I know those feelings all to well. What helps me is to talk to my husband, hug my cat, do a craft, write in my journal, listen to music. Is there anything that makes you feel good or positive? Like a song, or movie or a hobby? I know distracting your mind can be difficult.

[jane77]

I haven't had suicidal thoughts since I was a teenager, at least not beyond wishing I wasn't "here" sometimes.

When the despair does creep in I usually try to find the dark humor inside myself. And when that doesn't work I usually employ a "fake it to make it" strategy which at least gets me through the day.

Am so sorry you feel this way. Most important is to remember that it is temporary.