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#401
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Don't tell me. I'm still a few seasons behind.
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![]() unaluna
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#402
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Yup. A right feckin' eejit is what he is ![]() Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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'... At poor peace I sing To you strangers (though song Is a burning and crested act, The fire of birds in The world's turning wood, For my sawn, splay sounds,) ...' Dylan Thomas, Author's Prologue |
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I'm exhausted and my anxiety about my session today is starting to overtake me. 4 hours to go. I wish it would hurry up and get here already so that it could just be over with.
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**the curiosity can kill the soul but leave the pain and every ounce of innocence is left inside her brain**
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![]() Anonymous37844, Anonymous40413, atisketatasket, JustShakey
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#404
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I was actually planning on getting a tattoo of barbed wire on my left leg after I'd beaten the illness there.. but that didn't work out as that leg had to be amputated. ![]() I hope this is/will be/will remain your "beaten the SI" tattoo, though. |
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#405
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![]() From my Facebook feed... Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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'... At poor peace I sing To you strangers (though song Is a burning and crested act, The fire of birds in The world's turning wood, For my sawn, splay sounds,) ...' Dylan Thomas, Author's Prologue |
![]() Ellahmae
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#406
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#407
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JS - Working on it. Good reminder, I just wish I could internalize that instead of trying to make everyone's misery better for them
![]() Art - I LOVE SHOES. Seriously it's a problem, in fact had to move the husband out of our walk in because of my shoes and bags... How do you only have 2 pair?! *mind boggled*
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**the curiosity can kill the soul but leave the pain and every ounce of innocence is left inside her brain**
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It'll be okay right? Seriously, freaking out. I've seen T 3+ times a week for the past 2 years and I start freaking out today!? Why?! This sucks. I'm scared. Anxious. Exhausted. Nervous. Someone tell me it'll be okay?
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**the curiosity can kill the soul but leave the pain and every ounce of innocence is left inside her brain**
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![]() Anonymous40413, atisketatasket, CantExplain, JustShakey, RedSun
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#409
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Oh and we have mandatory overtime this week due to a screwed up system update the did over the weekend, par for the course. I called h to let him know I'll be home late and he was lounging around watching the birds in the backyard no work yet today.
I don't know. Part of my therapy is spent figuring out how to deal w h. I wonder if i wouldn't even need it anymore if i left him. I would at first but i mean in general. A lot of my internal angst is because of his crap. I don't know honestly if its worth staying with him. Our son is going on 18 he's not a kid anymore. Maybe i should just move out and be done with him. I am so conflicted. Somebody tell me what to do ha. Part of me is plenty aware that even if i quit therapy right now, he'd find something else to endlessly badger me about. Gah. Sent from my LG-H345 using Tapatalk |
![]() JustShakey, unaluna
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#410
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Yes, it'll be OK.
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#411
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I haven't ever gotten serious enough with anyone to discuss finances.
But, growing up (in a hardcore socialist third-world country), my parents (who held low-paying public sector jobs) each had mostly individual a/cs -- some that the other partner knew of and some that were secret (which I would randomly find out about). Similarly, they also had secret schedules -- so, they'd disclose some parts of the schedule and the rest was totally secret (which I sometimes years later got told about). None of it had to do with affairs or anything -- they did this to avoid having the other partner disapprove of common enough stuff that each of them wanted to do. So, I now find it super weird and disconcerting to tell anyone -- partners, friends etc -- the mundane details of my day. Okay, I guess I really need to be in therapy ![]() |
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Thanks, BF. I just texted her and asked if she was still there like an idiot. Now I wait for her non-response and have to walk into her office even more embarrased. Sometimes I wish I could shake myself and tell me to just get over it already, grow up, figure it out. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me the past two days.
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**the curiosity can kill the soul but leave the pain and every ounce of innocence is left inside her brain**
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Thank you for this. Perhaps this is my new goal dor therapy. To learn the how of it... I really wonder if anything i could do or not do could ever make my h happy short of becoming his mommy. Which i cannot nor would i want to do. He is a sad big giant baby who insists he is not sad and refuses to consider it. Thanks friends for letting me vent here.
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![]() Ellahmae, unaluna
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#414
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Longest 3 hours of my life. No work to do so I'm waiting on the clock and it's never going to get here and this anxious dread will never go away.
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**the curiosity can kill the soul but leave the pain and every ounce of innocence is left inside her brain**
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#415
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Go for a walk? Watch baseball? If you're at work, does your desk need to be reorganized?
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#416
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Would watch baseball except boss is here. Nope. Wish it did though. :/ Maybe I'll rearrange it some other way, but there really isn't another way to rearrange it. Only one place for me to sit in this huge sideways "U" shape. Blerg. Also, the "B" key isn't working properly on my keyboard.
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**the curiosity can kill the soul but leave the pain and every ounce of innocence is left inside her brain**
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When I need to waste time but am too anxious to do anything productive, I do connect-the-dots puzzles. In my country they sell little books full of them. Lately I've also been doing wordfit puzzles - they also don't require a lot of thinking capacity. Both are sold in bookstores around here. Maybe something like that is an idea for next time?
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#418
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Google 365 online wordsearch and do a nice theme one. The baby animals one maybe.
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#419
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Good idea. Maybe I'll try to find some online. Thanks, BF.
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**the curiosity can kill the soul but leave the pain and every ounce of innocence is left inside her brain**
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#420
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Please NO @ Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live, it is asking others to live as one wishes to live. Oscar Wilde Well Behaved Women Seldom Make History - Laurel Thatcher Ulrich Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional. |
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#421
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Thanks Red. Doing wordsearches now.
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**the curiosity can kill the soul but leave the pain and every ounce of innocence is left inside her brain**
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#422
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Epic fail today at new pcp's office. Tried getting ambien for my whacked out sleep...nada.
Going off meds otherwise. Tired of poisoning my body for a few months relief only to start over again. T not totally on board but my body my choice. NP doesnt know yet. |
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#423
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Tried that. This keyboard won't come apart so I need to go buy some air.
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**the curiosity can kill the soul but leave the pain and every ounce of innocence is left inside her brain**
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My senior cat would get on my keyboard, I'd go to lift her off, she'd stick her claws under a key and it would come off as I lifted her. I got to be good at fixing keys. |
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