Poll on emotional melt down Take 2

I do the curl up and shake thing a lot. It's actually why I chose my username
I didn't really think about it, but I go mute, or mute-ish, often too. It's like I'm trying to force words out of my mouth and making strangled choking sounds.
I've cried a couple of times. I know I block myself, I can feel it, but I can't entirely stop the block for whatever reason. Apparently I've trained myself to laugh whenever I'm in danger of crying too much. A few times I've cried while laughing. You know how people say 'laugh through your tears'...? With me it's more like cry through my laughter...

Once when I was really agitated and depressed I remember sobbing through the whole session. Generally I don't cry, I just occasionally tear up.

I picked a few, though for me, any crying in front of another is seen as "uncontrollable" because I have a huge fear of crying in front of people. Yesterday in session, tears kept spilling from my eyes, and that was uncontrolled crying for me...
I'm rarely loud, so screaming or yelling doesn't happen in therapy (it also feels very unsafe for me). I've also gone mute, unable to move or convey anything when I became overwhelmed...
I generally look at therapy as a safe place to have "unsafe" emotions (ones that got me in varying degrees of trouble as a kid).
Thinking about this further though, I'm not sure I'd really consider any of this a meltdown. To me, meltdown implies a total loss of control or cohesion, with an inability to contain it all again. That's happened a few times for me, but I'm not sure if any happened in therapy. Maybe once or twice? I dunno.

I am outwardly about as emotional appearing as a bowl of cold oatmeal. I sit straight up and a hand gesture is about the extent of it.

With my ex-T (the one with the pet rock) I had an emotional break down and left. She had her chair so close to mine and was touching me after I begged her to stop. I stood up, kicked the trash can, screamed at her to stop touching me and asked her if she typed up her degree and printed it and asked how she passed collage but maybe her rock could give a better answer. I then left and slammed the door behind me. I could not take her talking to the rock or touching me anymore.

Oh yeah, that T was totally bonkers and it is a good thing you

I've done all of the above, but I don't know what the threshold is for "melt down". I don't feel like they've been melt downs as much as honest expressions of emotions that my therapist has taken in good stride.

when I hit the one T to me that was an emotional meltdown. Luckily he agreed that he was mostly at fault and shouldn't have come up and tried to hug me from behind ESPECIALLY considering what we were discussing.

I've had once where I just got up and walked to my car so I could curl up and cry in the backseat under a blanket.

I've had twice where I curled into a ball and cried uncontrollably.

I occasionally shed a few tears, but usually it's minimal. I've had two big meltdowns, what I consider as ones for me. Both of them involved me just sobbing. The most recent one my T had to talk me through it and talk me through breathing because I was hyperventilating. It was actually very comforting how he handled it.

I voted 'other'. No, I've never had what I would consider a meltdown during therapy.