So I don't know since my last appointment with my psychiatrist I have been getting more and more scared of him. And after the comments he made I feel like I cannot trust him really at all like normally I am scared of him but now it is closer to like how scared I am of the doctors at the hospital which is a lot. I really don't know what to do I feel like going to see him again would be very dangerous but if I don't he will probably call the crisis team on me again which would be bad ugh I don't know if I should tell him I am more scared of him now or if that would be bad because then he would become more devious around me ugh should I tell him and go to the appointment or idk I don't feel good.

[kecanoe]

It seems like you don't have any options that you like. I don't know what will be best for you, but I would rather say stuff I don't want to or am scared of than being forced into hopital (I am assuming that's what the crisis team will do).

[OliverB]

Can you talk with your psychiatrist about you being scared when you think about medication/being inpatient/forced?

[here today]

I don't see that you need to tell him that you are more scared of him now, unless he asks. And you may be right that the risk of missing the appointment and him calling the crisis team may be greater than you going to see him. But I don't know your mental health system there and what the policies are.

I don't know how to explain this like I am honestly really scared that he is going to hurt me I feel like I can't trust anyone other than the others in my head like everything I even I keep getting scared that if I eat the food here at the house(program) someone will have put something in it and I keep getting scared of everyone like I want to scream I feel like I need to run and hide half the reason I couldn't sleep at the hospital was cause I was scared they were going to put something in my head and I just everything is scaring me and everything is just really difficult right now and I feel like I am spinning I am not just nervous like everything inside me is screaming that I should not go because he will hurt me I can't I don't know what to do anymore and hiding everything is getting more exhausting.