Irritable about last two appointment

I'm going to my last two appointments but at the same time I'm somewhat irritable about it. I'm sad about the relationship ending...I don't feel like talking about it would help. I mean, I don't need to analyze why it sucks to be terminating the relationship. I like her, we've had a good connection, and I will miss no longer having that support. I don't really feel like "therapizing" about it will change that. And For what it's worth, I don't have an intense transference thing going, just regular connection

It's probably time to terminate, as she has gotten busier with her schedule I see more and more of the traditional "med first psychiatrist" in her. She used to be a therapist with the added bonus of managing my meds. Now she's a psychiatrist who's answer for most things is a med adjustment or change. I feel it's inappropriate as my "pathological" mental illness symptoms are mild and infrequent now, and I'm dealing with more emotional life stress and physical health stuff that I need basic support with. I hope once she leaves this office and is just at the new one, her schedule settles down so she can provide her patients there with the well rounded approach that drew me to her in the first place.

So yeah, our relationship has run its course I guess but it doesn't change the fact that I am disappointed and sad and ambivalent about the last two sessions. I'll go, but I don't know, it just feels like it would be patronizing to have her therapize the end of our time together *shrugs*

So that's where I am at. Thoughts?

I haven't yet had this experience, I usually leave T's suddenly. From what I've read, it is a good experience to have. Ending a relationship on purpose in a safe environment to process those feelings apparently helps ending relationships later in life. Since everything ends sometime, being able to experience the termination phase is just as important as the initial phase. I think the T I'm with now will be a hard ending. For the first time I feel myself really attached.

I have had huge frustration with my T as of late too. How often do you go to see your T? maybe you can just cut back? That's my first step - cutting back. Then I will see how I feel.

I don't see her very often; that actually may be part of the problem. I was usually seeing her every 6-8 weeks and did fine as long as we could keep to that schedule. I saw her mid-November with plans to see her again right after the New Year. She had to cancel same-day because she was ill. I had cancel our reschedule same-day because I was stuck at work. The same day cancellations were difficult. The night before i FINALLY had a new appointment in March, I received the letter that she was leaving the practice. It was very sucky timing...I had contemplated leaving because of the difficulty seeing her but had just decided to recommit. so yeah. Unfortunate timing

I have two more appointments with her and she's essentially booked through the end of her time there. So it's two, one, or none. And I know I'm doing the two...just don't know how beneficial it ultimately is