[OliverB]

I want to taalk with my psychitrist/theraaapist about many issues, but most of them aare dangerous aand wanto to lock me in different places and that's not good for my existence.

My psychiatrist/therapist is OK, I can trust him but I can't trust the whole system. It's daaangerous to be inside it but I caan't be so alone.

How do you do to overcome the system danger?

(They could get you and if they say you are not Ok or something that doesn't happens to you is haappening, you can't do nothing but wait and tell them what they waant to hear. Some of them are like man in blaack hidden under a white doctor coat, like from some kind of FBI stuff, but most of these one don't wear a coat but regulr clothes and it's weird for a doctor to don't wear coat, maaybe they aare not doctors)

If your mental health provider such as your doctor or therapist believes their(you) patient is in imminent danger to yourself or another person, then they are obligated to intervene and break confidentiality to advert suicide or homocide (crisis intervention via hospitalization is an example).

However, telling them you have had thoughts of suicide lately but have no actual suicide plan, for example, wouldn't be considered imminent and therefore confidentiality remains intact. I'm in the USA and that is how it works for the state I live in. Take care.

[stopdog]

I would not tell them. I would call an anonymous hotline from a phone that was not mine if I really thought I needed to say it to another human.

Hotlines will send the cops to your house. I used to volunteer for a suicide hotline. Policy dictated 911 be called if there was or appeared to be an imminent threat to loss of life.

In your case I guess they'd show up where the phone is? Lol

That was years ago. Maybe the hotlines are more chill now.

[stopdog]

There are better ways now to make it less clear from where one is calling now. Before, I would have used a pay phone and not talked for more than a minute or so before hanging up and leaving. Nowdays, if one could find a pay phone, I would also wear a hat or something to cover my face because if near a store or something there might also be cameras.

[OliverB]

But aren't suicide hotlines only for suicidal crisis?

I am not suicidal or anything like that. I don't self harm either.

I don't understand what are you trying to tell me ???

[Waterbear]

I think maybe a bit of 'Chinese Whispers' happened here. I did not read those thoughts in your initial post but it wasn't particularly clear I don't think. Ate you worried that your mental health providers will hurt you? I genuinely don't believe that most set out to that to people but I appreciate that paranoia can cause us to believe that they are against us. Had there been any specific incidents?

[OliverB]

Originally Posted by Waterbear

I think maybe a bit of 'Chinese Whispers' happened here. I did not read those thoughts in your initial post but it wasn't particularly clear I don't think. Ate you worried that your mental health providers will hurt you? I genuinely don't believe that most set out to that to people but I appreciate that paranoia can cause us to believe that they are against us. Had there been any specific incidents?

Yes, when I was inpatient they thereated me.

And when I was under 18 they didn't believe I was being abused by my parents and they usually just blamed me. Also, I have been missdiagnosed with a ton of different contradictory stuff without being truly evaluated.

My actual psychiatrist/therapist is good but I can't trust him because I am too afraid of the health system.

I left my parents at 18 and I entered the university. I am a good student, I work in summer, I am a volunteer at a dog shelter and Red Cross, I have adopted a ferret, hamster and bunny.... I don't hurt anyone or do anything wrong to society. But I have been treated like a "criminal" because I "left my parents and now I complain about being alone" or because "I must have done something because parents don't do that to their children without a reaason".

Also, a psychiatrist form ER told me I would have to be inpatient If my mood doesn't improve.

Plus, I doubt I would get bettter. I am a donut filled with trauma. I don't have family or friends, I can't stand being near or attached to people. Nobody would help me. My life was beeing hell until I could leave.

I think it important to be honest with your psychiatrist. Many here may disagree with me but they are the professionals. It should be them who are making the evaluation whether or not a hospital stay is necessary.

[OliverB]

Originally Posted by justafriend306

I think it important to be honest with your psychiatrist. Many here may disagree with me but they are the professionals. It should be them who are making the evaluation whether or not a hospital stay is necessary.

Sometimes professionlas trust themselves too much. Last time I end up much worse after being inpatinet, before I wasn't afraid of being outside my home and talk with people. They blamed me for not improving while being inpatient, and just discharged me.

Now my psychitrist doesn't want me to return to the hospital, It wasn't him who called the hospitla last time.