[Sarmas]

I had therapy break which was a little longer than my usual due to issues with my T and her habits. I figured that I would get it all out of my system and come back fresh and give it another chance. Well I guess due to my increased stress and no therapy my coping skills have been poor. I saw my T for the first time on Monday since I had my last session. It's been about 1.5 months. My stress is only getting worse and I decided to reach out a few times. I texted her and emailed her concerning my difficulties and trying not to fall into old "habits". She's absolutely MIA as if I said nothing. She shows no interest or concern. When I saw her in Monday and I told her about my difficulties she responded and said to me that I'm an adult and can make my own decisions. I get that but I feel like I'm talking to a wall. I don't want to talk to a wall and I don't know how to stop her from being a wall. I know that this is not how she responds to teens because according to her I'm an adult and I'm not forced into any scenario where teens have less say so and less control of their lives. I get what she's saying upto a point. I told her that I don't want to rely on old habits and that I'm not sure how to cope and I got no response. I'm in the middle of having to move and I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. She doesn't get that but she day that she's sure I have other options like renting an apartment. I didn't explain that I don't have the finances to be able to pay for first months rent, security, and deposit. Then on top of that all pay for the move as well. This was all totally clear to her. The funny part was that she then tells me that she makes financial sacrifices for her two children and that she works part-time to not pay daycare. Her husband does the same thing she does as well. I'm like financial sacrifices???? You have no idea what financial sacrifices are. I'm like you have three cars and you only have two drivers in your house. You own two houses and you vacation at the most expensive places. Meanwhile im collecting change from my car and house at times to place it in the coin star machine to put gas in My car and food on my table and then hope that the car doesn't break down further. I would respect her more if sh didn't feed me such stories. She doesn't have to try to put herself at my level in order for me to understand her. She has no idea what my level is. Here I am struggling and trying not to pick up a habit that I got rid of and I'm not sure where to turn and she's nowhere. I just gave in today partially. I was thinking of quitting therapy altogether again. Idk. It's not about what I don't have and what she does have its about honesty and helping throughout this difficult time.

[Skeezyks]

Hello Sarmas: I'm sorry you had this experience. I've seen a few different therapists for brief periods over the years. They ranged from mediocre to dreadful! I no longer see one. So, anyway, I don't find what you experienced to be surprising.

I know I've read posts, here on PC, where members said their therapist saved their lives. So I presume there are good... even great therapists out there. I just never found one. I suppose one just has to keep looking...