he was lovely last time. very very gentle. he said that he got my emails but wasn't sure whether i wanted him to respond or not... he said he kind of wanted to print the last one and talk to me about it, but he didn't want to give me a sudden shock or anything and so he didn't.

i sent him the last post i made on the meds board... all kinds of themes in there... stuff about my worrying sometimes about malevolent intent. i guess that was why he was so very gentle. stuff about my not wanting to talk about him leaving either 'cause it is embarrassing how i get attached to people who don't really care about me.

he said little things... to try and show me that he does care, i think. hard to find the balance between treating me like other patients (no special treatment - so i don't feel threatened) and saying little things to show he does care about me (so i don't feel threatened). safety. is hard.

but he seemed... not demoralised. that was great. meant a lot.

i love my t.

[MissCharlotte]

Alexandra,

This is wonderful news. Your T is working at the relationship too, and that shows that he really cares.

You must feel supported and validated. Congratulations!!!

[gardenergirl]

I'm glad to hear it, alexandra.

gg

gentle is very wonderful!

I'm glad for you, ak, that you are feeling it and savoring it.

that is good news alex i long for gentleness from my T. Hold onto the feeling of it for times when things are harder

[sunrise]

How wonderful he was so gentle and caring, alex. He is really taking a lot of care with your relationship, isn't he? When a session just all comes together like that, it can be so healing. I'm happy for you. (((hugs)))

[MyBestKids2]

(((((Alex))))))))

I really miss my gentle "T". Even though he didn't have the extensive degrees and certifications my current psychologist does, he just "knew" me...