[Chummy2]

I've posted about this stuff before. My PrevT should be back from her 20 weeks of maternity leave / vacation. Should, because I don't know her exact startdate. But my current T had contact with her by email, to plan a date for a session. There isn't a date yet, because the first one I couldn't go, so she would look for another date and I still have to hear back. I guess it's kind of hard because they only check their email during their workhours.

I haven't heard anything from PrevT (yet?). I'm so hoping to get an email from her. A few months ago I sent her an angry email, maybe she thinks I don't want anything to do with her? I sort of wrote that. It's not really true. I wish I wanted nothing from her, but the truth is I want contact with her so bad. Or maybe she doesn't contact me because I'm not her client, I'm the client of current T. At the last session she said that I would hear from current T when she gets back and what will happen. Does that mean she won't contact me? That everything will go through current T?

She has said she would be curious about how my exams went. If she really was, she would send me an email to ask about it. I want to hear something from her so bad. I feel hurt that she doesn't email me now she's back at work. I feel I was right all along and she doesn't care about me anymore. She has enough of me and my attachment.
Hearing from her. It's all I think about all day long.
I'm also scared to see her, because I'm scared she doesn't like me and only does this session because she's a good T. And current T is one of her collegues, so if she would say no that might would not look good to her collegues.

How are you? Any E-mail yet?

[Chummy2]

No
My current T had contact with her. She had sent PrevT and email to set up a date for a joined session. So there is a session planned, but it's 2 weeks from now. That's a long time away. But PrevT is back at work and she has looked at her email. So I think she doesn't really want contact with me?

I asked about this in an email to current T, if she might know something. That was yesterday and I didn't get a respons, while I sent it during her workhours. So I think current T has also decided to ignore my emails? Maybe she thought I've sent to many emails? I usually don't do that, but group just started and I've got no one to talk to. And there were only a few emails about the T-issue, one long one, a short reply from her with some questions and then 2 (not long) replies from me to her. The other emails were about scheduling that session and one about something I needed from her for schoolstuff.

I've never been told about the rules for emailing. Usually I don't email T much. There has been months without an email from me. So if she thinks it's too much or I can't email her because I'm now in group and things should be talked about in group, then she should have told me that.
Btw, there hasn't been room in group to talk about your issues. This week was the start, so it was to get to know eachother a little bit and some explaining. And Monday will be a bit the same. So at the moment I'm alone with all my thoughts.

[Waterbear]

Hugs Chummy, that's a really rough situation to be in. I bet you just feel like shouting out and saying 'just talk to me'. I would also feel upset if I was in your situation and old T didn't reply to me. It really wouldn't take much would it. The only thing I can say is that I know two weeks feels like a million miles away when so much is on your mind, and they should know that but so often people don't. To the average Joe, two weeks is nothing. It really will pass and come soon enough and it will go quicker if you get busy and distract yourself. That may be the only way through. Sorry they are doing this to you though.

[LonesomeTonight]

Is the joint session with you, PrevT, and current T? Just wanted to clarify.

[Chummy2]

Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

Is the joint session with you, PrevT, and current T? Just wanted to clarify.

Yes, they work at the same clinic. Current T thought is would be a good idea to have one or more sessions with PrevT to talk about my attachment and to find out where it comes from and also to help me and PrevT to have a good closure (though I don't think PrevT really cares about that, to me it seems like she can distance herself/her feelings from her clients). And because It's so hard for me, current T will be there too so she can help me if I need it.
I don't know if I'm really not going to have PrevT as my T again. I don't want to stop having her as my T, even if I'm angry/upset/disappointed right now.

[Chummy2]

Originally Posted by Waterbear

Hugs Chummy, that's a really rough situation to be in. I bet you just feel like shouting out and saying 'just talk to me'. I would also feel upset if I was in your situation and old T didn't reply to me. It really wouldn't take much would it. The only thing I can say is that I know two weeks feels like a million miles away when so much is on your mind, and they should know that but so often people don't. To the average Joe, two weeks is nothing. It really will pass and come soon enough and it will go quicker if you get busy and distract yourself. That may be the only way through. Sorry they are doing this to you though.

Yes, I just want to know why she doesn't do that. I feel like she isn't interested in my at all and what she said at our last session was just to keep me satisfied.
I've told current T about how hard I find this, but she also hasn't replied to that part.
I think I'll get busy in the next two weeks. School starts. But all this stuff also makes me feel down and hopeless. Right now I don't really care about anything and I'll feel more likely to give everything up. But I'll try to not give up on school and to just go.