[Victoria'smom]

I'm thinking of giving up my T. I only see her every month or so because of her availability. I feel I have nothing to talk about. I'm withdrawn with everyone barely even talk to my husband. I've isolated too. So I feel like I'm wasting her time and mine. The idea of leaving the house just for that appointment is less then appealing. However she's my only link to mental health services. If I drop her and need services in the future I'd have to start all over again. I don't even know if I need services. I wish there was an easy way to tell. I'm no longer on meds so she'll be upset at that. I didn't make it to my pdoc intake and really don't plan on rescheduling. I'm not hearing,seeing,feeling, things that aren't there and I'm not thinking things that are untrue. I am having occasional suicidal/ self harming thoughts but they're just thoughts. What do you think?

[Out There]

I think I'd talk to her about how you're feeling and look at what your needs might be now.

[LonesomeTonight]

Originally Posted by Out There

I think I'd talk to her about how you're feeling and look at what your needs might be now.

I agree with Out There. It sounds like you're isolating yourself, which can definitely be a symptom of depression.

[AllHeart]

Have you talked about your withdrawing, isolating, suicidal and self-harm thoughts with your t? If so, did you two come up with any ideas for coping? What about taking a month long break before deciding to quit altogether? Do you find support or relief from this t in any way at all?

Do you know what kind of withdrawal symptoms might occur in being off your meds now? How will that affect your current situation?

A wise teacher once told me, "you cannot heal in isolation." Isolation creates the space to get further lost on that path into darkness. It doesn't sound like you are in a good situation right now. What is your plan should things get worse for you?

[Victoria'smom]

My med withdraw should be over it's been 3+ months for most of them. 2+ months for my injection. I haven't seen T since sept 14th and I don't see her again until November 8th. I missed one session. So this will only be session 3 with her. She gave me a list of coping skills and was almost demanding that I get out of bed daily. Which I do now not that I achieve much else. I don't find her supportive yet as we've only had one real session. I don't really talk but I did tell her what my thoughts were but not about wanting to quit therapy. My only back up plan is the hospital if needed but I doubt I'll need it unless things get really bad.

[Submax]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

I'm thinking of giving up my T. I only see her every month or so because of her availability. I feel I have nothing to talk about. I'm withdrawn with everyone barely even talk to my husband. I've isolated too. So I feel like I'm wasting her time and mine. The idea of leaving the house just for that appointment is less then appealing. However she's my only link to mental health services. If I drop her and need services in the future I'd have to start all over again. I don't even know if I need services. I wish there was an easy way to tell. I'm no longer on meds so she'll be upset at that. I didn't make it to my pdoc intake and really don't plan on rescheduling. I'm not hearing,seeing,feeling, things that aren't there and I'm not thinking things that are untrue. I am having occasional suicidal/ self harming thoughts but they're just thoughts. What do you think?

I would reach out to your therapist and reschedule with the pdoc. I don't think having suicidal thoughts is good even once in awhile. Why not call the therapist and talk with your husband ? I think it would be a good step forward.

[Victoria'smom]

It's not that I don't want to talk to my husband I just have nothing to say to anyone. I don't want meds unless/until I become psychotic. I'd rather wait it out. So a pdoc isn't useful yet plus the waiting period is long and I've already canceled 2x. I don't want canceling with pdoc to ruin my ability to go to the clinic if I'm keeping T.

I don't see the need for a sooner T appointment. I'm not really talking so I'd rather someone that would use it get in sooner. One and a half weeks aren't that long. So I'll keep this appointment