I posted a while back about sharing a T with my adult son.. I felt/feel that my T and my son would mesh.. and they did rather well..

So I am happy and relieved for him.

I decided today - had a session with my/our T.. to quit for the time being anyway..

Sharing is too much for me... my T is primo.. that is not the problem..he has excellent standards and skills - which is why of course I wanted my son to see him..

However, my son and I are Not in family therapy.. we are in individual therapy.. which as we all know is different.

Sadness prevails for myself and my system.. being DID is difficult.. my asthma right now is out of check.. my chest hurts soo bad... I think from the emotions - really not sure.. and have lost my voice again.. grrrrr.

I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I did the correct thing - it is just sometimes doing the right thing can hurt as we all know..

And to answer a question that was asked a while back, I will not seek another T... finding an effective T to treat DID, that you mesh with, that takes your insurance, that you can afford the out-of pocket and co-pays.. well lets just say I don't have the strength..

So... I am not sure anything or anyone can relieve the sadness..

But am also very happy that my son has a shot at dealing with some of his issues..

I understand that many of you could share your T.. I am just not one of them..

[bipolar_bear]

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((freewill)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) I am sorry that you had to make such a hard choice. It sounds like you have considered alternatives and feel that this is the best course of action for you and your son. My thoughts are with you and your sorrow.

BB