[BlueAngel109]

Hi. I just found out my old therapist was just a school counselor, not even a PhD. He does have a license number but its not for lmft! I saw him for 5 long hard years. It was auwful, but that's the way I thought it was supposed to be. He used to make me lay on the floor, and have me lay spread eagle ecxsposed to him. I've never have felt more humiliated in all my life. It felt so dirty, and wrong, but he said that it was because of my past. This was NOT sex therapy, at all. He used to do the things my abuser would do, like turning off one of the lights,and using the phrases my abuser would you'd. He said to get me over my fears. My new therapist said that was totally inappropriate, and should haver never ebver happened. I'm having so much trouble with this. I don't ebven know how to start to unravel it. Then one day he just let me go....just like that. I don't understand how this could happen and how I could be so stupid. I ignored my warning bells bevcause he said I had to to get better. I'm so hurt! I trusted him to know how to help me and what was best. And I blame myself for going back. I!m sory. I van only do this in little chucks. I'm just so hurt and scared right now. Thank you for listening.

[thesnowqueen]

I'm so sorry That is serious serious abuse on top of the abuse you had already experienced. No words.

I wish you luck with your new therapist and hope you find the healing you deserve.

[Erebos]

I am so sorry, I wish I had words to help but I know they offer little comfort.
However there are people here who have experienced what your going through and I sure Will be willing to help.

Also look in the sub forum. A poster called precaryous as posted A lot of links offering help and advice for people abused by their T's.
Be gentle with yourself, and remember NoNE of this was YOUR fault! NoNE.

[Erebos]

https://forums.psychcentral.com/roma...therapist.html

[precaryous]

Blue Angel,

This sounds devastating. I'm so sorry. How long ago did he terminate you?
I'm glad you have a subsequent therapist to help you deal with it.

It's understandable to me that you went to this therapist expecting he could help you. It's not your fault he was unethical. You did nothing wrong. He exploited and betrayed your trust. Again, I'm sorry.

I'm very sorry this happened to you.

While I haven't been abused by a psychotherapist, I am a survivor of medical torture that resulted in me losing my leg. Similar to your case, I thought a lot of things were normal, and it's only now that I realize the abuse went far deeper than I initially thought.

It's great that you've found the courage to re-enter therapy. I know how difficult that can be.

Hugs, Breadfish