CBT Stinking Thinking?

When I really looked back at the abuse incidents with my mom, I realized no one helped me. I have major triggers from it:
1. Someone who says (or should) they love me, but does not have my back
2. Someone who says they love me, but will not treat me with enough priority to give me one thing that is of utmost importance to my well being and causes me pain.

So, when this final knock out fight happened, and I was not treated with empathy or defended and protected by my other family, and my mom was allowed her faulty thinking fueled abusive rage, I wrote them all off.

I did end up writing them all a letter, and I even said how this abuse started when mom screamed at me for not eating when I was a child, causing me to run from the dinner table, crying, every night, and how no one defended me. They all sat there and watched the abuse.

That's why I am furious now, and need to be the one to defend myself. The adult me needs to go punch those bullies in the nose for the little me!

I don't care what any psychologists say, that premise is human nature and the way to heal. I may have been little and helpless then, but I am big now and they're not getting away with it.