[hobo2000]

I'm unsure and ruminating and emotionally handicapped right before going into therapy. I am on the shot of Abilify and I feel like I am more emotionally stable enough to talk, but I am not sure how to start conversation about the negative thoughts that plague me. I certainly do not want to be labeled a "psycho" and anyone threaten my ability to have a job and I don't want to get hospitalized every time I get too real.

I don't want to be the "special" patient or the sickest one there but I'm worried I am that patient. I want to be able to talk about everything and in a concise and eloquent way, but AGAIN I do not want to impress anyone and I don't want anyone to think I am lying. I want to be in control but I want to be honest and I don't want to be looked at as a phony...

I am stuck in between a rock and a hard place here. I don't want to go to the hospital again and have to ask to use the toilet every time I have to pee.

I'm so irritable and depressed over this inability to talk about my feelings and thoughts,- I only have 10 minutes to talk, but at the same time I have to do it or I'm just going to keep suffering .

For what it's worth (and this is just my opinion), I doubt you'll be labeled as "psycho" or become "the special patient". Therapists are there to help, not to judge

I don't think your therapist will think you're lying (or even exaggerating) as long as you're honest. Therapists can definitely smell b_llshit when they see it, and they can tell when someone is being truthful. After all, if you make a lie, you have to make another lie to cover up that lie, then you have to make ANOTHER a lie to cover up THAT lie. It keeps going and going until you can't keep track of your lies. So yes, a therapist can easily tell when someone is lying or not. Lying always catches up to people at some point!

Also, I don't think you'll be hospitalized again just for being honest. They will hospitalize you if they think you're a danger to yourself or to others, and at that point, it's what's best for you.

[kecanoe]

Why only 10 minutes to talk? I've been in therapy for years and sometimes don't say much in the first 10minutes. It sometimes just takes me a while.

[hobo2000]

Originally Posted by kecanoe

Why only 10 minutes to talk? I've been in therapy for years and sometimes don't say much in the first 10minutes. It sometimes just takes me a while.

It was a medication appointment with my Doc. Where I live they give out drugs more than they have time to counsel their patients.