[Perna]

Check this out:

http://www.phototherapy-centre.com/home.htm

Obviously English, doesn't spell "center" correctly :-)

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Perna, thanks for an interesting link! Just last week and right before I had to leave for my session, I was overcome with an obsession to find the picture of me that is the 'me' I see in my 'little girl fantasy' I've talked about with T several times and have mentioned here.

I have been listening to Simon & Garfunkel lately. I love their harmony so much. (I could analyze or over-analyze that and relate it to the harmony of T and I therapy, but.. nah... hehe ) Anyway, one of their songs "The Only Living Boy in New York" has a soft refrain of "here.. i ... am.." and is my favorite part of the song. That was 'playing' in my mind when I became convinced I Had To find this photo to take to her This Session!

I had only about 15 minutes until I had to leave for T. My photos are mostly in boxes willy-nilly and stacked in the closet. I haven't looked at them since in several years. It was like looking for a needle in a haystack and during a panic attack! I dumped box after box on my bed, hurriedly spreading them out looking for that one old black and white. I was getting more frantic when I couldn't find it anywhere--even with the cat 'helping'!! I gave up and was so distressed. I was about to walk out the door, keys in hand when I had to go back and look one more time. There It Was!!

Couldn't WAIT to get to T and tell her about my silly frantic behavior. She said So, you found it? I said, yeah. She said, Did you bring it? I said, yeah. ... ... ... ... Do you want to see it? (as if I hadn't actually wanted to run in and thrust it at her just several minutes ago). So we looked at and talked about the picture a while. I loved doing that with her. "here.. i ... am"

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Perna, thanks for that link. Phototherapy sounds really interesting. I know phototherapy as a therapy for various skin conditions, so that is what I thought of first when I saw the word! Here is the link to the book referenced at the site:
Phototherapy Techniques: Exploring the Secrets of Personal Snapshots and Family Albums

I would like to learn more. One time in therapy, I was bringing my T a child information sheet I had filled out on each of my girls, to let him get to know them better and essentially be a conversation piece for us, and I included a snapshot I had taken of each girl. I chose them carefully. He asked me why I had chosen those shots and we explored that for a bit. Really fruitful discussion. There have also been times my T shared with me photographs, two were in a book that had been of major importance to him through his life, dating from childhood. And then just recently, he shared a slideshow on his laptop of photos he had taken while on a recent trip with his mother. We had talked about it before, and I followed up with him, and got this slide show. It was beautiful, really meaningful. I liked how he used the photos he took to construct meaning and a story. I can learn something from that (I dabble in photography). I also enjoyed seeing him with his mom. The use of the photos deepened our relationship. I would like to do more. Maybe I should bring another photo of mine to share with him. Hmmmmm.

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Obviously English, doesn't spell "center" correctly :-)

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ECHOES, I loved the story of your here I am photo.

[Perna]

I use to bring so many pictures to therapy my T actually finally groaned :-) and pleaded with me not to bring more, LOL. But I even had an old 8 mm movie from the late 1930s-1943ish that I'd had converted to VHS and a cheap, small, tv/VHS player that I took to therapy so she could see the only "living" pictures I have of my mother. There's a 2-3 second shot from just after she and my father got engaged (1939ish) and he's trying to film her and she's trying to "hide" in embarrassment and I swear I can feel exactly what she's feeling. Very weird, the spark of identity I feel.

This is a picture of my mother about that time, 7 months to the day before her marriage: http://tinyurl.com/27eaaj

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Oh Perna, shes beautiful!