Made a thread in the bipolar forums, but eh, might as well post it here too...

My mood is swinging from euphoria to severe depression, with no triggers involved. I'd say it's rapidly swinging every 2-5 hours as of today.

Possible trigger:

I was suicidal yesterday and bought "supplies"

I just came down from mania, so I don't know if I'm experiencing a mixed state or what, but I can't think properly... at all. No concentration whatsoever because my mind is racing with all these negative thoughts, but also racing with euphoric thoughts when "manic". (Yesterday night I was going to "save the world" and "rid it from all evil".)

I'm afraid to tell this to my therapist because I don't want to go to IP. Is there any way I can tell this to her without her sending me off? I want her to help and give me some guidance, not put me in the ER. I think if she helps me, it'll be far more useful than the ER. (I just upped my antipsychotic on Thursday... so it's not going to work instantly. ER will just be a waste of my time.) I just need some coping skills; that's all.

That sounds like a difficult situation. I hope your mood will level out soon.

[LonesomeTonight]

Hugs...can you tell her that your moods are swinging rapidly and that you had SI, but leave out the "purchasing supplies" part? Do you think you can keep yourself safe? Like could you come up with a safety plan with T if you don't already have one? And that does sound like a mixed state, from how I understand it.

[Victoria'smom]

I think reassure her you're safe

[growlycat]

Yes tell her so she can help you but name the ways you stay safe

[Salmon77]

I think you should be honest with your T about how you're feeling and the thoughts you've been having, and what you think you need right now.