[Anastasia~]

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[Anastasia~]

My T pointed out today the difference between him and myself. He said he is mostly calm and that I am in pain. He said notice the difference??? Is he trying to point out that he can cause me pain and I have no effect on him whatsoever unless it's to annoy him? Is he trying to make me more angry to get me to leave? I can't do a bad ending this time. My previous T purposefully questioned me in a circular fashion, asking, if you're in so much pain, why should you stay in therapy? He kept framing his questions so as to make me say something negative. It wasn't hard, though, with that therapy. I am so afraid that T is going to bombard me and destroy me like what happened before. I was too stupid, traumatized, etc., and couldn't muster a decent defense. I hope that this therapy doesn't end with a manipulative technique designed to show the patient "the truth" as they see it. It was horrifically traumatizing, yes I needed to go. But not this time, I do not want to be treated that way. I had such a good time last week focusing on my family/myself and here I am again afraid that the relationship is over. I'm insufferable.