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So, I finally saw T after my IP experience a week ago. I didn't contact her office, and let her know I was going in, which is what she prefers. Then again, the hospital double checked my appointment time. Plus, I had left a message asking for something, considering I just got out of the hospital.

Anyways, T had NO idea I had been inpatient. She wanted to ask a bunch of questions about it. I was okay spending sometime on it, but I did, honestly, have a lot on my mind. There were some things I felt I needed from therapy for myself. I wanted to schedule something that was actual diagnostically valid that could tell me about where I was in my ability to function at the moment. As, I want to work. I like to work, but I don't always know where to draw the line. There was a couple of other things. I wanted to talk about what I was changing in my environment to help myself function.

However, she immediately started talking to me/treating me differently than she ever had before. She said I was behaving manicy. I could see where she was coming from; because, I was trying to get through a lot of "material" in a short time. When, I told her that actually I've been very balanced lately, and that I just had lot on my mind. She just said she wasn't going to argue with me.

In fact, that's how the entire situation went. "I'm not going to argue with you." "That's not my role." etc etc. I wasn't even asking her to do anything outside her role. She would just assume I was asking her to tell me what to do or once again "argue" with me.