This session left me in pieces.

In reply to KraziBean - my T is the opposite. I have her home phone, but not her cell phone. Her home phone is listed too. I would think that home phone is easier because that way they're not being called in a store, or in the car, or at a relatives house if we used their cell number!

The only phone number I have for T is his office number where I see him. I can leave a message even on the weekend and he will check it. I don't have any alternative phone numbers for him.

Uh huh. . .and he's told you he'll check messages even on the weekends. . .so this means. . .if you call, he'll know you called and know you need to connect with him.

:::::: throws a teddy bear across the room at Pink:::::::

I ever tell you I think you're hardheaded?

T actually gives me times when he will be in the car to call him on his cell, if I leave a message between sessions and I need him.

I also have his home number.

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Uh huh. . .and he's told you he'll check messages even on the weekends. . .so this means. . .if you call, he'll know you called and know you need to connect with him.

:::::: throws a teddy bear across the room at Pink:::::::

I ever tell you I think you're hardheaded?

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:::::::::::takes the teddy bear and cuddles it::::::::::::::::::

Hmmmm... maybe I'll bring this one to session with me. Or maybe I'm too hardheaded????

I know, I know... if I need him why do I torture myself?

Maybe he's too busy collecting defunct Ikea account balances.

ROFL

Pink. . .you should have taken the TB to begin with (but you already know this, don't you?) and you should have called him by you were singing the "bok bok" song too loudly weren't you? You ARE hardheaded. . .use that though, to become steadfast in your resolution to see yourself getting better.

Call him.
Tomorrow.
Let him call you back.
TELL HIM what you need to tell him.

Ok I actually just called him.

It took me the entire day. But I did it.

I am overwhelmed. The pdoc raised my Lithium and I can't think. I still have half of my paper to write. It's due tomorrow and between the Lithium and the depression, I cannot think or focus. Today was a rough day at the hospital. Patients crying, patients so sad, patients asking me for a hug.

I just want to go to bed for a couple of days.

So I called him. It was probably a bad time of the day to do so b/c I don't know if he's going to check msgs. for the rest of the day.... so now I just wait.

If you have a note from your doctor saying you were unable to complete your assignment for medical reasons you can often get an extension. I know I only use this when I really really need it, cause I hate asking for "special" circumstances. I don't know if you feel the same.

Way to go. Now, the ball is in his court. Go home. Work on your paper. If you need help, ask for it. I don't know if DH can help you or not, but there are LOADS of folks here who probably could if you asked.

TB=Therapy Bear :::: snicker::::

I feel like the ball is always in his court. I wanna be in his court, too. Me and the ball. And T. In his court. Together.

I pushed myself all day. Pushed myself to get up, run groups, be there for the patients. Now I will push myself even harder to get this %#@&#! paper done. Then I have to plan out my groups for tomorrow.

Depression+Lithium+Internship+Work+School=Disaster

Oh T, please call me back tonight.

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I feel like the ball is always in his court. I wanna be in his court, too. Me and the ball. And T. In his court. Together.

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Yes, I see. Would you also like to be out of boundaries (pun intended)?

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What an equation for disaster!

I hope he calls you back. It's his serve, is it not?

%#@&#! %#@&#! %#@&#! %#@&#! %#@&#! %#@&#!

My cell phone has been glued to me.

I left it in the livingroom for 3 minutes while I washed a glass in the kitchen.

He called while I was running the water and had the music on and I didn't hear the phone.

He left a message saying if he couldn't get me tonight he'd try again tomorrow, but he will try one more time tonight.

So now I'm waiting again.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

Pink. . .chill. If he said he'd call back, he'll call back.

The question is. . .are you going to actually TALK to him when he does?

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Pink. . .chill. If he said he'd call back, he'll call back.

The question is. . .are you going to actually TALK to him when he does?

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No, I'm just going to laugh and snicker over the phone like Beavis and Butthead.

hehe, my autistic brother only ever talks using beavis and butthead voices, so maybe that would be fun to try.

I just wanted to sympathise with being at work with demanding patients and feeling like crap yourself. I am really unempathetic when patients complain and I am standing there, feeling sick, haven't slept for days and trying my best not to vomit all over them and they're complaining because they only slept a few hours last night. I am soo tempted to tell them to shut up because at least they did sleep last night and don't have people now asking them stupid questions and they are in bed!!! OK that's my rant for the day.

Isn't it always the way, the one minute you are away from the phone or in the toilet it rings? how about you ask your T his theory on that??

Pink,

You & T meeting me & hubby:

Hi Pink, I'm sorry you are having a hard time. I understand believe me.