I miss my T

I really miss my T. In a way I am coping better than I thought I would, like if this had happened last year I think I would have had some kind of breakdown. In saying that though, it has still been hard. I still feel angry about the fact that T only told she was closing her practice when I asked if I could come back. I’m pretty sure she was hoping to get away with not telling me at all which makes me wonder how manny other things she was keeping from me. Despite this, I still wish I could see her again. I’ve been thinking about finding a new T but I also wonder what the point would be since they would just end up leaving eventually too.

I’m not sure what I’m hoping to get from posting this but I just wanted to vent to people who would hopefully understand.

I still miss my old T a lot. I don't think it was at all fair of her not to tell you she was closing her practice. I don't understand why she didn't want you to know. It sounds like you may have ended your time with her anyway, with just the chance you could see her again. Did you get a closing session?

You can't let the idea that everyone leaves eventually rule your life. You have to learn to enjoy the moment--much easier said than done. Put the other way then everybody eventually leaves if they die (so far, even based on history, we don't know for sure that we all will die. There's always a first exception That's my theory.)

Yes, get another therapist.

(((retro)))

I just had a session about letting go and grieving, and what stuck with me us the fact that trying to stuff it deep down and bury it is just making it worse. I thought I could never talk about it, but suddenly I did, and I listened, and I cried, and I talked a bit more... And I realized how much it hel2os to talk about it amd remembe rthe precious moments, the gifts I took from this bond, and even tho its gobe and can never come back, a part of it will firever live on inside me, becauae it shaped me.

Do you know the book the little prince? One message I get from it is that even though we lose someone, we never lose the memories of them, and they fill our world with beauty.

I hope that you can find the beauty your T gave you and hold on to it through sadness and longing. In the end, nobody can ever take this beauty away. Its the beauty she gave you that will forever remain.

I hope im,not being too philosophical tonight...

thank you for all of that. i'm going to be saying goodbye to my t soon (my choice) and thinking of all of this will help. while i'm ready and it's time, i'm still going to miss her...

Thank you everyone for your replies.

I'm not really feeling up to a detailed response right now but just wanted to let you know I have read and appreciate your replies.

And that's okay, you know.