Firstly I would ask for support and secondly non judgement( if possible).

I am very fragile today because last night I had a very disturbing dream about t. I am confused and really upset and emotional. I wanted to text her today and say I am never coming back and she is on her holidays until mid January so I know I will have to wait till after this to text her.
Yesterday was a very emotional session with t and my dream really freaked me out.
I have been confused about my relationship with my t for a very long time and lately again there has been too much self disclosure. I wish t would just be my t. She had had another role in my life which wasn’t my choosing or hers but we managed to relate outside of therapy and act professionally.
I don’t think I could ever tell my t about my dream. She wouldn’t be able to hold it and we would have a massive rupture because I am already ashamed of my dream without her rejecting me and shaming me. I could do with some support.

[stopdog]

I am sorry it is so hard for you.

[SalingerEsme]

Dreams that powerful, are rare and upsetting. I am never sure if the things that happen in dreams are symbolic or literal. It is a hard time with T's away- disruptive. You seem so adamant she couldn't hold your dream. Do you wish she could? This relationship- T and client- is to me the most challenging and sometimes heartbreaking bc it has no social norms and no script. Hang in there.

[mostlylurking]

Sometimes dreams can just reflect our fears, so they can be terribly disturbing because they're what we're most afraid of. Is it possible to put that interpretation on your dream?

Thank you for your support Stopdog

Originally Posted by mostlylurking

Sometimes dreams can just reflect our fears, so they can be terribly disturbing because they're what we're most afraid of. Is it possible to put that interpretation on your dream?

Yes- thank you! I have been trying to figure this out all day what was it about t in my dream and it is a huge fear of intimacy. Thank you this helped a lot

Originally Posted by SalingerEsme

Dreams that powerful, are rare and upsetting. I am never sure if the things that happen in dreams are symbolic or literal. It is a hard time with T's away- disruptive. You seem so adamant she couldn't hold your dream. Do you wish she could? This relationship- T and client- is to me the most challenging and sometimes heartbreaking bc it has no social norms and no script. Hang in there.

Thank you for your support
I wish t could hold my dream, I would like to talk about it with her because she is so good at dream work but not when it’s about her and very intimate

[DP_2017]

I've had 2 dreams, one was not sexual and one was, I've told him about the non sexual and it went fine. the other i am pretending never happened, that might be a good approach for you as well but if it gets to be too much for you, please try to tell her somehow, or it will interfere with your progress.

[Out There]

I'm sorry you're feeling fragile and disturbed by this - our subconscious tells us things we fear and often don't want to hear or accept consciously. When my T's appear in my dreams it's been telling but always positive. Fear of intimacy , especially emotional intimacy which we need , that's a difficult one. Sending you hugs as always Mona.

[rainbow8]

I'm sorry you've had a disturbing dream. Try to remember that dreams are not real, and like others posted, they're more symbolic, not literal. Maybe you will be able to quit seeing your T because of this dream. I still wish you could find someone more helpful. I didn't mean that to be judgmental. I just care about you and your well-being. Hugs!

I'm sorry the dream was so disturbing. I don't know if it will help but anytime I have had a dream about my t (we do dream work as part of therapy) she always-always has me read it as "dream-t" instead of "t" for her name, because she says it isn't about her, she's there representing some aspect of me. (((Mona)))

Originally Posted by DP_2017

I've had 2 dreams, one was not sexual and one was, I've told him about the non sexual and it went fine. the other i am pretending never happened, that might be a good approach for you as well but if it gets to be too much for you, please try to tell her somehow, or it will interfere with your progress.

You are so right. I feel it is actually interfering already because I don’t want to see her ever again. I wish a big hole would just swallow me up.
Did you feel that your t wouldn’t want to hear about your sexual dream or that they wouldn’t be able to process it with you.

Originally Posted by Out There

I'm sorry you're feeling fragile and disturbed by this - our subconscious tells us things we fear and often don't want to hear or accept consciously. When my T's appear in my dreams it's been telling but always positive. Fear of intimacy , especially emotional intimacy which we need , that's a difficult one. Sending you hugs as always Mona.

Thank you Out There, I really appreciate your feedback. I have been trying to ignore and disown these sexual feelings towards her but the more I push them away the more they emerge into my conscious. I know that she was representing me in my dream but it was just so real and disturbing, it actually woke me up and I wondered if t had sent me this dream intentionally.

Originally Posted by ArtieSwimsOn

I'm sorry the dream was so disturbing. I don't know if it will help but anytime I have had a dream about my t (we do dream work as part of therapy) she always-always has me read it as "dream-t" instead of "t" for her name, because she says it isn't about her, she's there representing some aspect of me. (((Mona)))

Your t sounds really good at dream work and processing dreams Artie. My t is very good too but because of the nature of this dream it doesn’t feel safe.
I know that in my dream t was representing my disowned sexuality. It was just such a disturbing dream that I was shocked that she did that in my dream and I reacted so physically. I am not used to having such vivid dreams.

[Mike_J]

I spent most of my most recent session talking about the dream I had about my therapist the previous night. I wasn't sure I wanted to talk about it with her for a lot of reasons, was very intimate but not sexual.

Bottom line is I took a leap of faith (once again) went into a subject I wasn't 100% sure was "safe" and as in the past my faith was well founded. I would suggest you look back at past experiences with your therapist and ask yourself is your therapist someone you can take a risk with?

[Elio]

Mona - I've had a few dreams with my T. They do seem to mess with me a bit when I have them. Hugs, I am sorry to hear you've had such an awful dream. I hope you can find ways to treat yourself with kindness. I wish you the best, if there is ever anything I can do, let me know.

[chihirochild]

(((mona)))

Sending you wishes for safe gentle dreams until your legs are strong underneath you again.

Thank you all for your hugs and support x
Looking back at my past experiences with my t I know why I don’t trust her with this dream. She laughed when I told her about my erotic transference for ex t.
I get confused about her because sometimes I think she is sending me signals, I mean she knows that I have feelings for her but she never wants to talk about them.
I am trying not to shame myself but it’s really hard because these feelings are so powerful at times and I am so vulnerable around her. It’s beginning to really hurt because I know too much about her

[Fernwehxx]

I used to do a lot of dream work. Now. I seem to not remember many dreams.
Dreams can be very disturbing because theyre very emotional. Its how our brain works on stuff out.
Honestly, I believe that a good T could deal with it even if it was sexual. It often means sth slightly different. But its hard to be that open when we feel like were pushing boundaries.

Hooe you feel better getting it out here.

[WarmFuzzySocks]

Hugs, mona. That sounds confusing, having a dream about your t that she might not be open to hearing.