Oh how I love the reality check of therapy.

Talking about not trusting, it's roots. Me beginning a mindless monologue about I get the effect of my adoptive mothers rejection. But I honestly don't think I feel rejected by my birth mother in the same way. I get she was messed up, couldn't be a mother.....

Then T after quietly listening says "I think that's all a bit to rational"

Me: turns to T and stares. Immediately realising she's right. I was just, talking-of-the-top-of-my-head.
Of course I must have had and still have a lot of feelings around that too.

Hhhhmmm. T stopped me in my rational tracks lol.

[peaches100]

Mouse,

Yep, those reality checks (or "aha" moments) sometimes take us by surprise.

[TeaVicar?]

I find it incredible hard to connect to the feelings and not try to rationalise - especially those pre-verbal feelings, I can barely articulate them.