[OliverB]

My therapist is also my psychiatrist, he gives me prazosin and write the medical reports I need to give to the social services.... I have complex PTSD.

Though, I hate talking to him, he makes me feel much worse to the point I miss 1-2 days in bed after seeing him. He knows, I have told him several time, but I am seeing him through the public health system and there is not another available therapist\psychiatrist.

I see him since two years and the only thing It has been helpful it is prazosin I convinced him to give me.

He focuses too much on my past while I am much more interested on improving my future. When I told him something about my present or future academic issues he ignores it and change the topic to something related to me past. I would like he helped me to build my future instead of diging inside my head to see my past. Last time he asked me what type of sexual abuse I endured and if it was severe.
I have told him all these, but he doesn't seem to get it, I am tired after two years; when I explain him how upset i am about the situation he tells me it is like everything he does is wrong, he said he has made a great effort giving me prazosin, an off label med here and he is trying to help me but "nothing is enough for you". I think I burned him out since I am not comfortable with him and he makes me worse, but both of us know that there is not another option unless I stop needing medical reports and prazosin. I have told him I really hated I was sent to him after my ex therapist moved to another place.

I was so comfortable with my ex therapist, but he moved to another city, I was only three months with him but he helped much more than my actual therapist.

Prazosin makes me functional, I will try to convince my GP to give it to me, today I see her. About the social service, I get some money to live because I am considered disabled that's why I need to give them a medical report twice a year, and I don't have any family or friends.

I need to find a weekend or night job to be able to live without the money I am given because of the disability so I wouldn't need the medical reports anymore. The problem it is I live in Spain and there is a lot of unemployment and I am studying pharmacy at college.

I feel so lonely and dispaired because who are supposed to help me cannot do it right and my last therapist didhelped me but he had to leave, so i know the problem is not me but my actual therapist is not the right one. I don't tell him my important problems anymore, even if they are severe like feeling suicidal.

[OliverB]

NEW: I have talked with my gp and she said she would give me prazosin in case my psychiatrist refuse. And I ask the nurse at the mental centre to tell the psychiatrist I want to be release from there (it is a day hospital). The nurse said she has to talk with him tomorrow or next Tuesday since he is not at the day hospital everyday.

[Skeezyks]

It sounds like you're having a difficult time at the moment. But it also sounds like you've made some progress in terms of getting your GP to prescribe your prazosin & possibly getting released from the day hospital.

It's so unfortunate you have had to continue seeing that psychiatrist, when all he does is make you feel bad. I guess the good thing about the health care system we have here in the U.S. is that, for the most part, you can see pretty-much whomever you want (assuming you have health insurance & the provider is within the health insurer's network. At least that's the way it is where I live.)

You didn't mention how school is going. Hopefully it's going well. Please take care of yourself. I send hugs your way with the hope that you will soon find a pathway to inner peace.

[OliverB]

I think I am getting depressed after seeing him. I cannot get out of bed and I am taking klonopin all day