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Lately, therapy has been challenging to say the least. I opened up to T about struggling lately and my noid tanking. T was very supportive as always but also mentioned wanting me to cut back on emails not stop but cutting back. What she really wants is to use as all my other coping skills before contacting her. She also asked me to do a homework assignment and email my thoughts. We are working on meme telling her wjen are bothering me rather than trying to interpret what I think she thinks. But that part of me who fears abandonment has been struggling.

Last time I met with EMDR T i mentioned my struggles with religion. I am Catholic. Today I had an appointment with her but it ended up needing to be video session. I asked about her comfort level with with theological discussions with me. She told me previously that she is Catholic but no other information. She is apparently very heavily involved with the church and is very comfortable discussing it with me. We had an amazing discussion. Probably one if my best therapy sessions ever.

Part of me wonders if T is trying to limit my outside contact in order to get me to trust and rely on EMDR T more. Boy these relationships are condusing.

Part of me wonders if T is trying to limit my outside contact in order to get me to trust and rely on EMDR T more.

If your therapist is encouraging you to move away from second-guessing her thoughts, it seems likely that she would have explicitly explained her intentions rather than leaving you to work it out. Perhaps the outcome of the reduced contact has resulted in you feeling closer to your EMDR therapist regardless of the intentions of your other therapist, a kind of self-preservation response.

[nottrustin]

She said that she had failed me by not helping me to better cope when I am struggle and create a toolbox of coping skills. Which led to discussing the list of coping skills I utilize. She wants me to try my various skills before making contact with her. If I do contact her our discussion will be about what have I tried and what else could I try.