[Tbhimscared]

My mood is constantly going up and down, and unfortunately for me my “up” days (or moments) are when I have an appointment with T. When I’m out of the really low moment it’s hard to explain those feelings to my T, and (sounds weird but) I always wish my really low days synced with days I see my T so that she could actually see how different I am. Ive tried journalling, but the point doesn’t really get across to her Idon’t think. Anyone else feel this way? My T has a super busy schedule so I can’t call and ask to get in right away if I’m having a down day.

[winterblues17]

Yes this happens to me a lot aswell. I think I struggle most over the weekends generally. Come session days I'm normally busy wth work and things, and feel ok compared to say the struggles ive felt over the weekend. So when I sometimes try to describe how I've been feeling it seems flat almost.
I've also tried journaling and writing notes on the down days, but 9/10 they don't seem relevant on the day so I don't give them, and the times I have it's just kinda of like yeah I felt that then but not now.
Sometimes I'm happy that I can go in with composure and just say what I need to say, others I get frustrated and wish I could hold onto the weekend feelings and emotions so she could actually see that part of me!

[MessyD]

I feel the same as as both of you on most weeks. And I don't know what to do about it. I also try to write it down but by the time I get there it just seems so irrelevant because I don't feel that way anymore and I feel better in T day. I also wish I felt low on a day I go there. Instead I go there and sometimes actually end up joking instead of admitting how I actually feel. He has seen me on my low days too but I'm still not able to express the real emotions the way they come up. I usually just shut down.

[Tbhimscared]

Yes! I relate so much to what both of you said. The day comes and those things don’t seem important anymore or worth bringing up because that isn’t bothering me. There was only one session I’ve had that I’ve been severely low and my T was concerned so she scheduled me in for extra sessions, but the thing is that that happens most weeks and she just doesn’t see me then so she isn’t worried. On a higher day I can joke and my expressions are lighter, so I think that my descriptions of super low days is taken less seriously than when I’m actually sitting there unsure of if I’m safe by myself or not.