Smooth.

Did you?

(((((((HUGS))))))))

I too am interested in how it turns out.

Annnnnnnd, I stayed.
We talked aboyt not being able to talk.
At one point as we talked about how I place my trust in things over people and I fear loosing all that I've used to keep me held together in the room, I suddenly said with stupid tears dripping down me face "I wanna, say do you know me mum died without ever talking to me" - T knows this already but I felt a sudden urge to say it again - T replied, I wonder if that's part of the fear. You are afraid this move means you will loose me without me ever talking to you again.
Once I pulled myself together I asked if she had told her neighbours. She said the woman next door is very upset.
That made me laugh. I said f£&K sake. You better stop telling people.
I did tell T that me talking able my feelings is like asking g me to take my arm away from my face whilst sometimes aims a rock at me and trust thy don't throw it. I added, you're taking my defence away from me.
T said yes but we're putting Something else in its place.
I relied "are we!?"
T said "yes!"
I know I trust her. But dam she gotta wrestle with me first.

you do such good work, mouse. i'm glad you stayed.

That's really flipping amazing, the way her moving tied into your adoption loss. Thanks for sharing this; your experience is really powerful and made me think. I'm facing a sticky work issue and there's a perfect parallel to your situation (just with my issues and what happened to me). This was really, really helpful to me.

What anne said.