Shiny stones...

Please don't ever offer your thoughts on anything I say again. They are not supportive in the least and I am not interested in hearing them.

It could well be therapeutic. Isnt a big reason why you left prev t because of loooooove? That bf didnt measure up to him? This t knows that, right? Now you bring it up again, telling T1 that bf said he has "the wrong stones". Freud says whaaaaat?!

You say you dont want to talk about it - meaning t1's part. But ts HAVE NO PART - they are just mirrors, they just reflect us. (Assuming good ts, and you English have excellent ts, i am sooooo jealous!) Ergo - we are just back to, is your bf tolerable or abusive, or actually idk what the relevant questions are, ive lived my life as a stray. but never compare bf against t - they are two different species.

No, the "loooooove" was not any part of the reason I left T1. The reason I left T1 was because he was not sufficiently managing his s**t and was instead letting it interfere with my therapy and cause me a lot of pain. It therefore makes sense that I would have worries about current T doing the same.

I have no wish to compare my partner and my T. At all.

I agree with EM, for what it's worth - I don't think this makes him a rubbish T, or delegitimates what he does well, I think you've just run into a moment of suck.

I'm reminded of the time my third grade teacher - who I worshiped - told us all that the moon created its own light.

I hope you feel better soon.

I hope you can talk to T about this Lucozader, and hopefully it will be a moment when you can discover T's true colours and that he's a great T, like Electric Manatee said (I think that's what you said EM, something along those lines?)