[nottrustin]

A quick recap. Last week when I met with T I said something that seemed to frustrate her. So she repeatedly asked "why do you insist on going into the negative and doing x why can't you stay in the positive and do y". While I l or it is probably an exaggeration bit it seems like she said it over an over. I felt like my mom was sitting there and I had made her made. When my mom would start with those questions I knew I was in a no win situation if I answers mom would get angrier if I didn't answer she would still be angry but eventually stop. So with mom I learned to shut down and not talk. That is what I did with T.

I emailed T and explained what happened. She thanked me for the email and said it is important that we talk this week. I don't know what that means...i am really nervous.

[LonesomeTonight]

I suspect she just means you and she need to talk about what happened between you, not something bad. Maybe she'll even apologize for taking that approach. And she probably would want to discuss the stuff with your mom, assuming you mentioned that in your e-mail. I understand being nervous, but I think it will be OK.

[nottrustin]

I hope you are right LT. This is where I get caught in knowing I can trust T and we can work through whatever happens bit so gear of abandonment.

[Lemoncake]

I hope your session goes well.

[nottrustin]

It went very well. T said she was sorry that I was hurt but it led to a HUGE revelation. She said the way I described how I reacted to being hollered at by mom describes me to T. It is how I react to emotional issues even today. She said it will be a big step in her helping me to lean not to shut down emotionally and that it is okay.. I asked lots of questions. At the end of the session she said as painful as it was she is glad it happened as she feels it is a huge break through.

[LonesomeTonight]

Glad it went well and you had a good revelation!