[wheeler]

Over the past three weeks all I can do is think about T and therapy. It takes up all of my waking hours and I can’t think of anything else.
I have been seeing my T almost 3 years and I have abandonment/attachment issues, especially as it relates to T. We have talked about it endlessly, at least that what it feels like sometimes. There is an ebb and flip to how I feel about our relationship, I guess more like a push-pull.
I’m assuming what triggered this obsessional/depressive/anxious feelings is that I leave for a 10 day cruis in 2 days and I’m really bothered about missing therapy, and my T.
Although there’s always some degree of difficulty when she or I go away, this time is almost debilitating. My T’s not sure why I’m having such a reaction this time. She wants me to get my meds check before I leave.

Thanks for listening,m

[SlumberKitty]

Being separated from T can be really difficult especially for a long period of time. I'm sorry you are experiencing this. Do you think once you get on the cruise you will be able to stop some of the obsessional thinking and get distracted by what is going on around you? Will you have time to get the med check done before you leave? Hugs if you want them.

[LonesomeTonight]

I also tend to have obsessive thoughts about therapy and my T (they were even more intense about ex-MC), including with his or my going away. Out of curiosity, is there some aspect of this cruise that's especially stressful for you? Are you going with family and are stressed about 10 days on a ship with them? Is it your first cruise? Does travel in general stress you out? Just wondering if there's some other factor unrelated to your T that's making the trip stressful, and that's just manifesting itself in thoughts about your T. I have the type of brain that's always going to be obsessing about *something* (thanks, OCD and anxiety!), so I think sometimes I subconsciously obsess about T rather than other stuff in my life that might be scarier.

[Lemoncake]

How often do you see your T?

For me it was easier to focus on him than myself and more so when I'm feel more stressed.

[wheeler]

Thanks for the replies.

SlumberKitty, I certainly am hoping that the cruise will be a good distraction, and hopefully I'll be able to enjoy myself. I did just get back from my PDoc. She is hesitant to change my meds because what if I have a bad reaction while I'm away. She did slightly up my Effexor. When I get back we'll do some more tweeking.

LT, I have been on a cruise before and I usually handle traveling fairly well, although getting ready for a vacation can be stressful. I own my own business and it's difficult getting everything done ahead of time and entrusting my staff, especially when I can't be reached. I have a great staff so I'm sure it will be ok. Typically when I start obsessing it usually means that the depression is starting to kick my butt. Which it is.

Lemoncake, I see my T 3X a week. So I figure its no wonder that I'll miss her. But to such an extent is unusual.