Couch 175: You've Got Mail....

I'll be yodeling while I eat Yodels then.

R said I can have a session this week- but by now I'm therapied out and I've already SH'ed enough to not feel anything and to be able to focus again.

Am I right to skip the session that I so desperately wanted before?

I feel that way about relationships at times, too, with the whole "points" thing. And I feel my H does at times, too, which isn't so good...

But I feel like no matter what you did or didn't do, he should be there for your surgery. Not that this excuses his behavior at all, but is it possible his health anxiety extends to you? Could he be scared about your surgery? Again, that doesn't make his selfishness OK, just one possible way to explain things. Like maybe it's easier for him to focus on his health than to worry about someone he loves?

Una stop licking Artie and play nice!!!!! (5)

I couldnt think of anything clean to say!

R said I can have a session this week- but by now I'm therapied out and I've already SH'ed enough to not feel anything and to be able to focus again.

Am I right to skip the session that I so desperately wanted before?

But I of that time am no longer the same. I actually had this dream this morning:

It's Christmas time and my dad comes into the house from somewhere. He tells us we're going out somewhere so to get ready. My little sister is 3 and wearing her blue disney princess dress and starts to change. My mother and other sister go and sit outside on the wall- it's snowing. I run upstairs to change my clothes and my brother and I are putting on our shoes. Then he decides to go to sleep instead and says he's not going whilst my mother and sisters are already waiting outside and I can feel the disappointment looking at him.

Did I miss a post and una is licking tikka masala off art, no doubt because art was looking looking at her at a bus stop?


I said for for you.

Do what you feel you need. But do you think you'll regret not going? Think about it in that sense. When would he be seeing you? Maybe schedule for like Thursday or Friday so you could still cancel if need be, if that's an option?

Play nice brought to mind an image of una licking tikka masala off art?

I worry about you.

I'm sorry if this is harsh, I really am. However, I feel like I have to respond to this. You cannot raise a child "as if" you are a single mom when you are not, especially when your husband is acting so dysfunctionally. There are several factors to consider. One is finances. Another is how this will affect the child's emotional development. I mean, if they live with him, have him in their life, they will be affected. Imagine the stress of having a father acting like he is constantly about to die on a young child. As an adult, you realize he isn't at death's door, and it's still making you feel suicidal. The effect it would have on a child who might believe the fuss would be very bad. Then when they finally grow to realize it's all in his head, that would do additional damage.

But did you go into that way?

I was just wondering if it was exactly the same situation.

Did I miss a post and una is licking tikka masala off art, no doubt because art was looking looking at her at a bus stop?


I said it for you.

actually-you can because i am doing it. it isnt easy but it works.

Maybe the word I was looking for is "should."

IB-how was the first day of home school? Was it a success for all involved?

id have to say it was a huge success thanks for asking! he attended all his classes with his headphones on and had a 2 hour break in between then did homework and worked ahead for the week. I think this was the best choice for all of us it is pretty exciting!

The fear of the handshake being taken away makes perfect sense. I'm glad he's upped his game.

i cant speak for you or anyone else but i suppose everyone can make their own choices

Missing T hard tonight. Not sure why now. I've been okay all week. Only 37h 15m till I see him...